no truth in advertising.

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I usually respect this site for showing respectable cutting edge adverts.

But how bloody stoneage is this:

http://www.frederiksamuel.com/blog/2005/09/oreillys-irish-pub.html

What I'm not. (X-posted from personal journal)

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Recently, I was referred to as a "whatever". The person who called me that is not a friend; it's someone who's never even met me, who heard something from someone about me being transgendered, and maybe even transsexual. I shouldn't care what this person thinks, yet I do. I care because I feel that nobody should ever be referred to as a "whatever". In modern slang, "whatever" is what you say when you wish to challenge, discredit, or invalidate something. When said in jest, among friends, it's benign, but when flung in anger during an argument, it's as malicious as any obscenity. I might be a lot of things people don't understand, I might be confusing, I might not even know what I am some days, but I know one thing- I am not a "whatever".

I am female. By virtue of the fact that I have two shiny X chromosomes and a woman's body complete with breasts and a vagina, I am a woman. No one who looks at my body, in its current state, would ever assume otherwise. The fact that I am not content with my body as it is does not make me male. When I'm out with my friends who use male pronouns with me, I don't get upset when outsiders gender me female. I look forward to experimenting with presenting as male in public, but until I get a binder to hide my ginormous boobies, it's not even within the realm of possibility. I accept that. I'm not in a hurry, and I'm not at war with my femininity. I'm uncomfortable in the body I have now, but I'm at peace with knowing that I can make changes. Just knowing that I can, that it's possible, has lifted a weight from me that I wasn't even aware was dragging me down before. It's like walking around dragging a ball and chain behind you, thinking it's a normal, unchangeable part of life, and then someone says, "y'know, you can get rid of that if you want to."

Aside from pronoun usage, my gender identity won't change when I make those changes in my body. I will always be a gender-variant person. Years from now when I've remade myself into a boy, I imagine I'll still wear skirts sometimes when I feel like it. You might ask, "so, what's the point?" And from the point of view that recognizes only two genders, I can't answer that. Personally, I believe there are at least six genders, on multiple spectrums. Male and female are just opposite ends of one spectrum, or from my understanding, "Masculine male and Feminine female". There are also Feminine Males and Masculine Females. Then there are Androgynes, who are "all of the above", and still another category, at least in theory, who are "none of the above". This is not a new concept- anyone who's taken a couple of anthropology classes can tell you that. Anyway, it's actually quite simple. I identify as a Feminine Male, not a Masculine Female. To someone who's accustomed to only two genders, those might seem like the same thing. To me, they are just as dissimilar as "boy" and "girl". That's why I want to transition. If men are from Mars and women are from Venus, I'm from another galaxy entirely. And you know what? I'm proud of it.

Androcur and Headaches?

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Question for ya'all -

I just started Androcur at a low dose (25mg) and I was wondering if anybody has experienced any headaches when they first started taking it? I've had one since a few hours after my first dose which seems to get better with food and water intake. Been told by some friends that starting any med in general will cause that, but I'm just checking to see what others have experienced. For the record, I'm only taking Andocur at the moment...

question

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so i had my friend inject me, she is a medical assistant at the clinic i work at. she has done it before and its been fine. but this time i have a lump near the injection sight and its hot and sometimes it itches really bad. im just wondering if this is because of poor injecting or if im just having a reaction to my prescription... or if im not storing it properly? ive been trying to find info on storing it but can find nothing... doesnt say on the bottle either. i called my dr. but shes out of town. i dont know if this has anything to do with storing it but you know, lots of questions come up when one is concerned. anyone know anything about this type of trans dermal reaction?

Binders

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Hi. I'm looking to buy a binder from mango. On the site it says that they fit small so they recommend you buy one size up. Does anyone have any experience with this? They're really expensive (for me anyway) and they can't be returned because of the size. Any help would be awsome.

coming out at work

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(hello).

it has recently come to my attention that i have to come out at work. going home every day feeling like sh*t because of being referred to as female is getting very old very quickly.

i was thinking that i would tell everyone individually, sorta like "find the right moment and spring it". in a very non threatening sort of way.

my dilemma, though, is twofold. one, i have all the classic "symptoms" of gender dysphoria, including depression and drastic mood swings. and two, i am one of those trannies who doesn't pass in the slightest. i am femmy, i am a femmy boi and that is the way it is. my motto is "if fabulous gay men can wear girl shirts, eyeliner, and glitter, then so, dammit, can i". consequently, i have been asked/told, upon numerous coming-out occasions, "are you sure?", "i don't believe you", and other such affirmative phrases. long story short, i don't want this to happen with a storefull of people.

anybody have any stories/experiences for me?
i would love to hear them.

Photoshop Phun!

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I'm not really a big fan of facial hair, but it definitely makes one's gender less ambiguous. gentle_gamer thinks I'd look cute with a beard. So I photoshopped one. Hee hee!

( Before and After )