stacis-leak.livejournal.comSo I mentioned a little time ago my plans to keep a sort of video blog of my transition.
And it occurred to me. There are hundreds of video blogs about transition. I want to do something different. I want to do something which won't just tick all the boxes for trans fanciers and fellow transitioners. I harp on and on about the public needing to be educated... maybe it's time I stepped up and had a go?
A little while ago I was talking to a friend of mine (Hi Anne, how come we never talk anymore?) about the fact that she was frequently in the media. She starred in one of a series of documentaries on transwomen and back when we were working together she asked if I wanted to be in the next series.
I declined, because at the time, I was rather keen on keeping things a little secretive, but as I've been quite vocal about recently the more transwomen go stealth and hide away, the longer it'll take for society at large to get a clue.
The trouble is, you could almost play a drinking game with the kind of documentaries they ask us to feature in. The people producing them have some kind of obsession with presenting us as tragic figures, obsessed with hormonal changes and surgeries while our lives and families crumble around us.
I can't help but feel that these documentaries give the impression that transition is not a cure but a cause of depression. Every time I hear that cloyingly sensitive piano music, and see teary figures presented not as victims of biology, rather than warriors battling against the kind of societal genetic determinism which causes much of the dysphoria in the first place.
And I thought if I'm going to make video blogs anyway, I might as well present it a bit better and go for broke.
This is a round about way of saying that I'm not going to video blog my transition. I'm going to make a serialized documentary about it.
I'm not going to try and make it a catch all for trans issues, I'm just one woman and they're not all issues for me, but I'm going to do my utmost to present a more balanced picture.
First stereotypes I'm going to try and boot are the concept of "life altering surgery" which is mentioned in all of these shows. So many people focus on the actual surgery as if it's the be all and end all, as if that's what changes someones life. In reality, in transition, life is immediately changed, Surgery is just one of a million steps along that route. We need to skip the focus from the kind of biased opinions I learned about transfolk as a child which kept me in the dark about how I felt until I was 23.
I don't know if I can make it entertaining without the titillation of the televised documentaries, I don't know if anyone will even watch it, but I think it's worth a go.
Plus if I do them in tandem, if the documentary gets popular it might help shift the book I'm supposedly writing.
Wow this ended up longer and rantier than I intended. Anyway the point is, I'd like to cover a broad spectrum of issues. As I don't have anyone else to star in this thing, it's going to be basically about me, but I'd like to cram as much educational stuff as I can in, pointing out ways in which trans folk aren't all cookie cutter replicants of a gender stereotype, making it clear that I'm following just one of many paths.
Which is why I'd be interested in hearing firstly if other people are in support of this kind of thing, and secondly what kind of things you think it'd be good for me to cover?
Any issues or topics you think the media has missed? I can't promise they'll all make it into the series, or even that anyone will watch it (trying to post something serious on youtube is like pouring a cup of tea into an ocean of piss) but at least we can say we tried...
Opinions?