Would this even be possible?

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I've been thinking a lot the past few months about helping others. I tried volunteering but that didn't go so well. I tried doing my own thing to help others but that failed miserably.

One thing though that's been on my mind for the past couple of years was to start something on my own. An organization or something. The only people I can even relate to and would want to help are other people who are in the grey area of gender mostly because there seems so few places are out there to help us.

I was talking to my mum the other day bout what if I actually played the lottery and won? I went on for a good hour explaining to her that I would buy a lot of land in some remote area and build a sort of school there. There would be dormatories, a gymnasium, classrooms, the works. It would be a school so to speak for people who have issues with their gender.

Therapists would be there to talk with people and help them figure themselves out. There would be doctors that would work with us to get people hormones if they wished to go that route. There would be support groups so people could get strength from one another. There would be normal classes for different subjects but there would also be classes to help people adjust if they decide to transition and what to expect from hormones. Perhaps even classes to teach how to apply makeup and take care of hair and things of that nature. Perhaps even facilities for hair removal and whatnot.

It seems kind of silly and my mum laughed at me but that is what I would do if I won the lotto. Now I wonder just what it would take to do something like this without winning a large sum of money. Perhaps I could figure out a way to follow this dream as silly as it may be. I'm just not sure if it would be possible or even wanted. I know I would love to be somewhere I feel like I belong. I would love to be around others like me that understand what I'm going through. I would actually want to go to class and learn knowing people weren't looking at me funny and talking about me behind my back. That was the main reason I dropped out of school is because of the stress and anxiety it caused me to be around that many people that I felt I had to hide from.

Of course I keep thinking of all the negatives though. What if people came who were there just to "chase" or if they were there to hurt people like us? What if someone decided to bomb the place? My mind always goes on the bad things people do.

Anyway I thought it was worth bringing up as it is something that greatly interests me and I would love some criticism.