quick vent

[actoholic.livejournal.com]

Sooooo I came out to my parents.

It took putting myself in a position where it'd be nearly impossible not to to get it done, but I did it. See, I went on over to the court and changed my name, knowing damn well that the document was going to be mailed to their house. Of course, this was supposed to take a few weeks, so I figured I had a little time before I had to mail them the big long coming out letter I wrote them. Naturally, I was wrong.

( A little story about that... )

Understanding

[kemolin.livejournal.com]

Can someone please please help me to explain to my boyfriend what it's like to be uncomfortable in your own gender.

What it's like to sit with your male friends and know fine well that you're male but have them perceive you as female, and why this is horrible. And why you can't just live your life normally "for the time being" until your transition starts.

Why I can't just ignore what's happening to me. Why I can't just see that, oh one day I'll be happy, and then suddenly that after this realisation, I can be happy and comfortable in my gender for the time being?

Please someone help me explain this because no matter what I say, I never come close to explaining it right.