Letter to my dad...

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So. I wrote and sent my dad a letter today. I'm getting SRS done this year, and I needed some extra money because I wanted to get my chin and adam's apple done at the same time. My mom wants to give it to me, but he's not cool with the transition. He was an alcoholic when I was a teenager, and he verbally abused me constantly. He hated me when I told them I was gay, and he hated me when I told them I was trans. Though he was one of those people who secretly, he wants a relationship of some kind with me.

When I first wanted to talk to him about it, I wanted to talk to him because of the money, but as I started writing, it became a lot less about the money and more of me just wanting him to accept me. I don't really care if he says no, there are other ways to get money, but I do want a relationship with him. I wrote because I didn't think I could speak to him on the phone without stumbling over every word and trying to spit the whole thing out in one breath, like I tend to do when I'm nervous. This way, it was deliberate and said exactly what I wanted to say. So to you, dear Transgender readers, I give you my "Letter to Daddy". Please let me know what you think.

( Letter )