The new BiGender.net!!!

[didactic-cudgel.livejournal.com]

So, 1 year ago, April 21, 2010, I launched http://www.bigender.net as a forum site for bigender and multi-people to gather and share support and resources and find other bigender and multi-gender people. As a celebration of it reaching its first year, I have expanded it to now include an installation of dreamwidth. BGN Journals is to be a home for all trans people and cis-allies to create journals and communities. Not a separate, segregated community, but a place of our own with

You can import your LJ account (and eventually a dreamwidth account). It's brand new, and it can only be as good as those who join and build it. I am inviting you all to do so. Use code 'livejournal' and you will get 9 months of paid account time. Eventually it will be a pay-for-privileges site, with ad support for free accounts, but the site isn't quite there yet (it's fully functional, but it still has some small bugs to work out in display and such).

I've also added a chat site at http://chat.bigender.net. The forum is still at http://www.bigender.net/forum or http://forum.bigender.net.

Please come and join me and tell anyone who might be interested :D

x-posted to bigender and genderqueer

hello

[ezraiam.livejournal.com]

hey there, i'm ezra, at least on here. i just made this account mostly so i could talk to all you people out there in the trans* community who have had experience with this kind of thing! 
so here's the deal...
i'm 19, and have been out as a lesbian for about two years, but i knew way before that i fancied girls. they're just... entrancing. anywho, i just started college and being away from home and friends who have known me since i was 6 has made me question how comfortable i am as a "girl". when i was 8, i prayed to not grow breasts and most of my friends were boys. since then, i buried those feelings. now all year i've been questioning whether i want to live my life as a woman, or as an ftm. i know there's a way to live in between, but honestly that road really does not appeal to me. it seems too vague, for lack of a better explanation and i'm not a vague person. some days i wake up and i've got myself so convinced that i should come out as trans, but then the next day i can't even contemplate being a man full time but the thought of growing up into a woman scares me too.
i want to decide if i'm trans or not, because waking up every day trying to decide which pronoun to use in my head is driving me crazy. i know i didn't do a very good job explaining my mental situation, but i would really appreciate any help.
thanks again!
ezra