Introduction

[damienbella.livejournal.com]

Hello all,

I am Damien/Bella. I consider myself bigender, I am either male or female depending on the day and my mood. Bigender, for those who dont know, is a transgender term for those who are both. Not in between but sometimes one or the other and switch between the two either consciously or subconsciously. Physically I am female, though today I am Damien. My male persona.

I joined this group and Live Journal in general to meet like minded people, to rant, rave and otherwise figure things out in my life. Im looking to meet others like myself and those who support people like myself. I have a great support when it comes to life, I have great friends who are here for me but it would be nice to get to know and talk to people who are like me, or atleast understand what its like to physically be one thing and mentally and emotionally be something else entirely.

I am struggling with this in many ways because I am in a straight marriage. My husand is extremly supportive but I worry about how far his support with go especially on my Damien days when I am in male clothing, male behaviors, and soon I will even start using packers and possibly STPs. A friend of mine recently came out as transgendered and she helped me to have more confidence in coming out myself. My family still doesnt know about it and not many friends around me do. I feel a little alone in this but I am trying to figure alot of things out includng therapy to help me cope with the new things in my life. Though ironically none of this is all that new considering even in childhood I was always the one volunteering to play dad when we played house and all. But anyway I suppose this is my way of reaching out to others who are similar to myself, or even understand a little. I hope to hear from you soon.