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transSo, the day came, and the day went. The day of, I was like a frantic 16 year old girl trying to figure out what to wear on her first date, in order to occupy my mind a bit, mixed with excitement, fear, and a case of really really really shakey legs. The wifey and me were bickering back and forth based off of me asking her what I should wear, what she thinks/feels...her calmness helped me relax, slightly, for what I could.
Then we went to the endo appt. I filled out paperwork, brought my blood work from my main dr., and proceeded on back. I didnt even get any second glances from anyone at all, staff, or even the over cramped to the point of nausea waiting room. And blah blah preliminary stuff like bloodpressure, weight, etc.
Then the endo came in, sat down, and was all like " according to all this you are also intersexed", which made a huge reality of a lifetime of pain dawn on me, and further more, made a TON of my life make sence, like why I would get "cramps" monthly at 11 growing up, and how I was always a bit androgenous, why I've always been denied the right to see a specialist as a child from my parents ( oh yaaaa, more on that in a bit), as I always thought the diagnosis was Gender Dysphoria ( a diagnosis like 18 different therapists slapped me with growing up how I did so dis avowed to feeling or being male physiologically plumbing wise).
So, he told me that my T levels are about normal for a female my age but I dont produce enough E or whatev, so I am on a ver very very tiny dose of Spiro, and once a week IM for E. He said he wants my T to be non exsistent and that my E levels would prolly shoot up to like 1000 something or another and he would slowly bring them back down to where they should be for a female my age, and that "everything should be just fine".
And away we went, with me boucing up and down like an over excited bunny rabbit when we got to the parking lot. heh.
The bad news? My insurance is not covering my IM med, but *does* cover my spiro. WTF??? Soo, asside from that little qualm and the few hundred dollar pricetag a month for my E I'm fine. The endo said the only E he wants me on right now is the IM when I called back asking for another RX and I dont get why, but thats that end of story case closed.
So in that process and the fact I have been living full time for a good month or so now, her family knows, and everyone is supportive/loving of us still and more so (asside from her father and one of her older brothers who is calling us all sorts of slurrish hateful things, and refuse to even have anything to do with her). A few people get caught up on the whole pronoun thing here nd there, but whats more annoying is the fact they correct themselves. Like, somone will be all " He's outside...I mean, she's outside." Albiet it being cute and loving they are doing this self correcting and correcting anyone else, it is kind of embaressing. But I shall live. Anyhow, small (although not so much), update on my scenario.
I am officially no longer self-medicating and am now under the professional care of an Endo who did not even hassle me for one second and treated me fully like me, with no thoughts/second thoughts/anything <3
Then we went to the endo appt. I filled out paperwork, brought my blood work from my main dr., and proceeded on back. I didnt even get any second glances from anyone at all, staff, or even the over cramped to the point of nausea waiting room. And blah blah preliminary stuff like bloodpressure, weight, etc.
Then the endo came in, sat down, and was all like " according to all this you are also intersexed", which made a huge reality of a lifetime of pain dawn on me, and further more, made a TON of my life make sence, like why I would get "cramps" monthly at 11 growing up, and how I was always a bit androgenous, why I've always been denied the right to see a specialist as a child from my parents ( oh yaaaa, more on that in a bit), as I always thought the diagnosis was Gender Dysphoria ( a diagnosis like 18 different therapists slapped me with growing up how I did so dis avowed to feeling or being male physiologically plumbing wise).
So, he told me that my T levels are about normal for a female my age but I dont produce enough E or whatev, so I am on a ver very very tiny dose of Spiro, and once a week IM for E. He said he wants my T to be non exsistent and that my E levels would prolly shoot up to like 1000 something or another and he would slowly bring them back down to where they should be for a female my age, and that "everything should be just fine".
And away we went, with me boucing up and down like an over excited bunny rabbit when we got to the parking lot. heh.
The bad news? My insurance is not covering my IM med, but *does* cover my spiro. WTF??? Soo, asside from that little qualm and the few hundred dollar pricetag a month for my E I'm fine. The endo said the only E he wants me on right now is the IM when I called back asking for another RX and I dont get why, but thats that end of story case closed.
So in that process and the fact I have been living full time for a good month or so now, her family knows, and everyone is supportive/loving of us still and more so (asside from her father and one of her older brothers who is calling us all sorts of slurrish hateful things, and refuse to even have anything to do with her). A few people get caught up on the whole pronoun thing here nd there, but whats more annoying is the fact they correct themselves. Like, somone will be all " He's outside...I mean, she's outside." Albiet it being cute and loving they are doing this self correcting and correcting anyone else, it is kind of embaressing. But I shall live. Anyhow, small (although not so much), update on my scenario.
I am officially no longer self-medicating and am now under the professional care of an Endo who did not even hassle me for one second and treated me fully like me, with no thoughts/second thoughts/anything <3