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Geez, I think I'm gonna be sick again. Just found out that a 4th friend of mine is preggers again. I feel like I'm being left behind and there's nothing I can do about it save mourn my womb. It makes me sick to think that I'm almost 30 and am likely to never have children born of myself, sick enough to cry and to cry enough to make me feel sick. Hitting this on the low end of my cycle sucks, too; makes the emotions all that much more intense. What depressing news to hear today, despite the fact that I'm happy for her, I'm still sick for myself.