One Step At A Time...
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transToday I recieved my Legal Name Change!!! Court Order will be in hand tommorrow afternoon!!! WOOHOO!
In the midst of my UBER excitement, I do have questions... curiousities... fears. I have never doubted my decision to transition, and I have been doing fairly well at it, so I think... my transitional photo album can be seen here...
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/transgirl22ny/album?.dir=/e37e&.src=ph&.tok=phWlphCB.Yhsu2Zo
I was wondering... what worries do you all harbor? I am good at visualizing things, placing myself in future situations. Have any of you gotten SRS or thought about it, beyond the end result???
I imagine myself, making phone calls, sending checks/letters, and setting a date (havent done any of that yet). Then the count down. 1 Year, 6 months, 3 months, 2... 1... the thoughts, of "OH MY GOD! I am going to do this for REAL!!!!" then getting ready for the trip. All your TS friends envying you, while your dumbfounded from the excitement/fear of the unknown. You leave your house, pull the door shut behind you, and think *PHEW* "Next time I walk through this door, I will have a vagina" Going to the airport, mind ticking away, wondering what it will be like to be RIGHT finally!
You get there, do all the paperwork, physical checks and all the proceedure you need to do. All the while thinking, HOLY SHIT! This is for real?! Then finally you're on a gurney thing, legs spread, ready for anethstesia, and thinking, well... fuck... it took me 6-7 years (my realistic expectation for SRS) to get to this point... *sigh* of relief... BLACK OUT, wake up with a diapered neo-vagina between your legs...
Thank fucking god!
I dunno, Its a fantasy only for me right now. But still, the thoughts of the enormity of it all kinda awe me... *sigh* one step down (name change) about a 100000 more to go... *hug* thanks for listening to my rant on my dreams... someday...
In the midst of my UBER excitement, I do have questions... curiousities... fears. I have never doubted my decision to transition, and I have been doing fairly well at it, so I think... my transitional photo album can be seen here...
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/transgirl22ny/album?.dir=/e37e&.src=ph&.tok=phWlphCB.Yhsu2Zo
I was wondering... what worries do you all harbor? I am good at visualizing things, placing myself in future situations. Have any of you gotten SRS or thought about it, beyond the end result???
I imagine myself, making phone calls, sending checks/letters, and setting a date (havent done any of that yet). Then the count down. 1 Year, 6 months, 3 months, 2... 1... the thoughts, of "OH MY GOD! I am going to do this for REAL!!!!" then getting ready for the trip. All your TS friends envying you, while your dumbfounded from the excitement/fear of the unknown. You leave your house, pull the door shut behind you, and think *PHEW* "Next time I walk through this door, I will have a vagina" Going to the airport, mind ticking away, wondering what it will be like to be RIGHT finally!
You get there, do all the paperwork, physical checks and all the proceedure you need to do. All the while thinking, HOLY SHIT! This is for real?! Then finally you're on a gurney thing, legs spread, ready for anethstesia, and thinking, well... fuck... it took me 6-7 years (my realistic expectation for SRS) to get to this point... *sigh* of relief... BLACK OUT, wake up with a diapered neo-vagina between your legs...
Thank fucking god!
I dunno, Its a fantasy only for me right now. But still, the thoughts of the enormity of it all kinda awe me... *sigh* one step down (name change) about a 100000 more to go... *hug* thanks for listening to my rant on my dreams... someday...
