Insurance woes

[awkwardrose.livejournal.com]

Ok, I am really frustrated about this and actually have been for a long time now. What you ask? Well the lack on insurance companies that will cover any sort of transsexual treatment options.

Not only is it frustrating, but also it is hard to pin down which companies, if any, cover treatment. I mean everything from therapy to surgery and everthing in between. Is there any company that does? Can you get private insurance from them?

Which got me to thinking. How can change come about? What can we do as a community and a unrepresented group to make some changes. I know, there is already a push to have this happen, but who is leading it? Who needs help? What do they need?

I never pictured myself as an activist, but I am beginning to think that I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I didn't do anything about this problem.

Certainly by now, 25 years later at least, the different treatment options are no longer experimental. Why can I go get a prescriptionfor a new asthma medication that is probably not tested enough, and be denied coverage for estrogen, which has been around for quiet a while? Why are the latest and greatest surgery options to deal with cancer all covered, but this internal cancer that eats at us is passed over and written off as not needed. Isn't it medically understood that the proper and only treatment in most cases of GID is to transition, or partially transition, in fact isn't it mentioned in the DSM.

Can I start today? Can a letter or appeal to the board of directors of Blue Shield actually make it into the minutes? Or will it be buried and thrown out, like we are when it comes to rights?

Sorry for the little rant. I just feel so powerless that I want to scream and kick and tear at something. To bad that this something is so big and powerful that all energy would be like a fan in a hurricane.

On Wednesdays we wear pink!

[orchidflower.livejournal.com]

So, I guess I jut like dressing up for Stonewall, or something, because I have been doing it a lot, lately. Now, thinking on it, I’ve been going en femme three to four days a week! Interesting, that.

Today, I *AM* wearing all pink. It’s one of the new outfits I got from Tar-Jhey. I’m a frugal Barbie Girl. I have a cute little knee-length pink skirt with a little wave at the hem (tres flirty), a pink ¾ sleeve, striped blouse (mmmm….slimming…), pink tennis bracelet, pink chandelier earrings, a pink heart askew pendant, my boucle slingbacks, in pink, and of course pink makeup.

I think the best part, however, is the retro pink suede and crocodile purse and the pink jeweled butterfly hairclip.

I’m just too pink for colour TV.

(let us not forget the pink lace bra and panties)

Meanwhile, in a fit of insomnia, I put on acrylic nails, at 5AM… I kinda fudged a couple of them (too much glue, a gloppy spot on the polish), but I think I did well, overall. I also think I’m doing well for being able to type at all, with fingernails at least twice as long as I usually keep them.

(and you guessed it…the nails are Pink Freeze, by Revlon)

My, but that post was vain…

-CJ

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What if I was born different?

[punktour2000.livejournal.com]

My girlfriend and I have been having a conversation and certain things were brought up which makes me question whether or not I was born with more than one gender.
1. I feel (and tested as) androgynous; as if I am both genders.
2. Anatomicly, I seem to have feminine hips and legs.
3. I have what seems to be mildly abnormal genital appearance.

My question is how on earth can I learn if I was born differently than I thought, especially if my parents do not know (or would rather not tell me)?

One Step At A Time...

[jessynecessity.livejournal.com]

Today I recieved my Legal Name Change!!! Court Order will be in hand tommorrow afternoon!!! WOOHOO!

In the midst of my UBER excitement, I do have questions... curiousities... fears. I have never doubted my decision to transition, and I have been doing fairly well at it, so I think... my transitional photo album can be seen here...

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/transgirl22ny/album?.dir=/e37e&.src=ph&.tok=phWlphCB.Yhsu2Zo

I was wondering... what worries do you all harbor? I am good at visualizing things, placing myself in future situations. Have any of you gotten SRS or thought about it, beyond the end result???

I imagine myself, making phone calls, sending checks/letters, and setting a date (havent done any of that yet). Then the count down. 1 Year, 6 months, 3 months, 2... 1... the thoughts, of "OH MY GOD! I am going to do this for REAL!!!!" then getting ready for the trip. All your TS friends envying you, while your dumbfounded from the excitement/fear of the unknown. You leave your house, pull the door shut behind you, and think *PHEW* "Next time I walk through this door, I will have a vagina" Going to the airport, mind ticking away, wondering what it will be like to be RIGHT finally!

You get there, do all the paperwork, physical checks and all the proceedure you need to do. All the while thinking, HOLY SHIT! This is for real?! Then finally you're on a gurney thing, legs spread, ready for anethstesia, and thinking, well... fuck... it took me 6-7 years (my realistic expectation for SRS) to get to this point... *sigh* of relief... BLACK OUT, wake up with a diapered neo-vagina between your legs...

Thank fucking god!

I dunno, Its a fantasy only for me right now. But still, the thoughts of the enormity of it all kinda awe me... *sigh* one step down (name change) about a 100000 more to go... *hug* thanks for listening to my rant on my dreams... someday...