Any Ideas?

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I spoke with my guidance counselor at school today. I'm Pre-Everything FtM and I want to walk in the boys line and wear the red (boys) gown. Legally in Mass I can do this, but other issues come into play. I have to talk to the Dean tomorrow, and he understands that legally I can do this in my state.

I think the community will be OK. As far as most parents are concerned, I'll just be another boy graduating with their son.

I'm not 100% on how my peers will react. I'm most concerned about the reactions from other guys in my class; no one knows I'm trans yet. There are plenty of Graduation practices, so I'll be marching with them then as well; so if there is any SERIOUS issue with it I'll have time to rethink my decision

I think my biggest concern is my family. My mom is making me feel like I'm trying to be selfish, so I kinda question whether or not I am being selfish. I want to make my parents proud, I want them to love me. I know they are unhappy with my possible decision though.

The way I've been thinking of it is like this: "I'm the only one who has to wake up and see myself in the mirror everyday for the rest of my life".

I'm just at a loss for what to do. Any ideas?

Cross posted to FtM and Closeted FtM