trans | Note to Parents.

MOTHER: When you move out and start making physical changes to your body you just remember that you had a family that loved you.
It's been months since you have said that to me. I have always loved my parents, I have always wanted to make them proud. I have always wanted them to be happy. So, I finally told them months ago and that is what they told me. How could you say something like that to your child? You gave birth to me. I am your flesh and blood. You are supposed to love me forever no matter what I do or what I choose for my life, 'cause it is my life. I can't even look in your eyes anymore. It hurts to much. To know that with one thing, everything came crashing down. I isolate myself from you now, to deal with the pain. I wake up in the morning and that line cycles through my head. I go to bed at night and that line cycles through my head. I look into your eyes when you are looking at me and that line cycles through my head. And everyday I want to cry, and I am sorry I can't be stronger than that. It hurts to know that one day I will be going through this alone. I feel so alone now, and all I want is for you to love me and take care of me like you promised you would when I was a little kid and the kids on the playground would pick on me. I have an amazing wife now, but still I feel alone because the love and support of my family is not with me. And it hurts everyday. The pain is so much, some days it more than other and some days I can barely feel it. But, the pain is always there and it is killing me slowely. Day by day.

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