i wanna be a girl!!

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Ever since I was like 7 or 8, I have wanted to be a girl so much. Now that I am older, I just want to enjoy being a girl and grow up to have a family and be a mans wife and a mother. I have a huge wardrobe of girls clothes and dress in them as often as possible. I'm really not sure what to do. I want to be a girl so bad but am not sure if I could go through with the surgery and hormones and things like that. I'm 5'10", and yes very thin and i have very girly hands and legs and arms, but my height would complicate everything. I am just torn on what to do. I dont think just being a very girly guy would cut it, it would seem fake to me. I dont see myself as a girly guy, i see myself as a girl inside. Everytime I picture myself, its always as a girl with a guy, never as a guy with a guy. That's why even though i love guys, im not sure I could be with one as Justin. I found out from my mom that the doctors said I was a girl up until I was born, and suddenly I was born and I was a boy. She even said she planned on naming me Christina. I love the name and go by it to the few people I have told about me. What do you all think I should do?? Please leave me notes!! Thank you!