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transJust a question for you gents out there.
I'm 17, FTM, but I despise being transgendered. With a passion. I hate myself for having the wrong mind in the wrong body. I hate the fact that I cannot just be a regular, born-right, normal member of society.
Now I might offend, but this is MY opinion and MY point of view.
I'm a freak. I am not accepted by society. I am stared at. I'm not normal.I'm screwed up. I'm an abomination to the world. I'm a reject. Because I'm trans.
And I hate it. HATE HATE HATE IT.
I know for sure who I am, and that I'm male, but I hate it so, so much. I want SO badly to be okay with my body. Because in bodily standards, I'm doing okay. I'm pretty damn hourglassy, decent chest, nice hips.. And I want so badly to be okay with my femininity and what-have-you.
Do/did any of you go through this? Like.. I DESPISE myself. Not who I am, but the fact that I'm trans. I want it to go away. I want to wake up and be a normal girl and appreciate my female self.
Help.. please?
-Eastyn
I'm 17, FTM, but I despise being transgendered. With a passion. I hate myself for having the wrong mind in the wrong body. I hate the fact that I cannot just be a regular, born-right, normal member of society.
Now I might offend, but this is MY opinion and MY point of view.
I'm a freak. I am not accepted by society. I am stared at. I'm not normal.I'm screwed up. I'm an abomination to the world. I'm a reject. Because I'm trans.
And I hate it. HATE HATE HATE IT.
I know for sure who I am, and that I'm male, but I hate it so, so much. I want SO badly to be okay with my body. Because in bodily standards, I'm doing okay. I'm pretty damn hourglassy, decent chest, nice hips.. And I want so badly to be okay with my femininity and what-have-you.
Do/did any of you go through this? Like.. I DESPISE myself. Not who I am, but the fact that I'm trans. I want it to go away. I want to wake up and be a normal girl and appreciate my female self.
Help.. please?
-Eastyn