An anonymous confession.

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Hello all,

I'm posting under a fake name because I want this to be anonymous because I'm very embarrassed. I'm a 21 year old MTF with a bit of a problem. Sometimes, when I dress in female clothing or shop for it, I get a little bit "excited". Nothing full on and I haven't even ever acted on it in private, but I get a definite rush and a little movement "down there", even for things as simple as socks. This is really distressing to me. I don't think I'm just man with a transvestitic fetish. I do want to become a girl. I wonder if it's just because it's just a "taboo" thing right now, because I don't pass yet and I'm still living officially as a man. But on the other hand, it's amazing what you can talk yourself in to over time.

I'm just wondering, for those who have been full time or even part time a while, have you ever felt the same feelings? And do they go away once wearing female clothing becomes normal?

This is really hard for me to type, even though I know nobody will know it's me. :(