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Lately, things have been looking up for me.. in some ways more than others at least.
I've moved out of my mom's house, and in with a friend and his wife (They're 20 =p). Well, I was thrown out of my mom's house. But nevertheless. Since then I've gone through the steps to change my name, and now I'm just waiting for my spiffy new CA ID in ze mail. I no longer have a force ragging on me for being transgender, I'm known as "savannah" or "sanura" to all of my friends and they treat me with respect. All is well.. Sorta.
While that side is largely under control, I'm having trouble dealing with the monetary side of things. I'm on my last dial of estrogen and can't afford refills (188$ for everything), and I simply don't have an income as I have a job lined up.. I just need to get my ID first. On top of that, I'm down to one bra.. x.o The psycho cats here have destroyed my others.. And my last bra is a frickin' training bra. *sob*
I just find myself being really stressed out a lot of the time. I almost want to just say 'Screw it' and live as a guy.. then I'd at least be normal. Not have to deal with all this crap. The urge to just fit in is really getting to me. Of course, that's not really an option in the first place, now is it?
*rubs face* Egh, I don't even know what to do about the facial hair. I can't shave daily or my skin turns to shit and gets so torn up. Everything costs money these days it seems. 100$ will buy me laser hair removal, 188$ a 3 months supply of hormones, 21$ a trip to the girl's dorms in Tahoe. Ugh.. I just feel like I'm making a bit of progress but never really going anywhere
Lately, things have been looking up for me.. in some ways more than others at least.
I've moved out of my mom's house, and in with a friend and his wife (They're 20 =p). Well, I was thrown out of my mom's house. But nevertheless. Since then I've gone through the steps to change my name, and now I'm just waiting for my spiffy new CA ID in ze mail. I no longer have a force ragging on me for being transgender, I'm known as "savannah" or "sanura" to all of my friends and they treat me with respect. All is well.. Sorta.
While that side is largely under control, I'm having trouble dealing with the monetary side of things. I'm on my last dial of estrogen and can't afford refills (188$ for everything), and I simply don't have an income as I have a job lined up.. I just need to get my ID first. On top of that, I'm down to one bra.. x.o The psycho cats here have destroyed my others.. And my last bra is a frickin' training bra. *sob*
I just find myself being really stressed out a lot of the time. I almost want to just say 'Screw it' and live as a guy.. then I'd at least be normal. Not have to deal with all this crap. The urge to just fit in is really getting to me. Of course, that's not really an option in the first place, now is it?
*rubs face* Egh, I don't even know what to do about the facial hair. I can't shave daily or my skin turns to shit and gets so torn up. Everything costs money these days it seems. 100$ will buy me laser hair removal, 188$ a 3 months supply of hormones, 21$ a trip to the girl's dorms in Tahoe. Ugh.. I just feel like I'm making a bit of progress but never really going anywhere