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transI finally got the nerve up to go femme my final semester of highschool, and it's caused a serious loss of male friends at my school. I've gotten a sort of mean vibe from every guy at my school, with the exception of a few eccentric or really really nice outliers, who stand out from the crowd in other ways than just their attitude toward me, but maybe this "vibe" I'm feeling just a generalization based on a few terrible souls?
so today at lunch I was looking around for someone to eat with, since Ms Wilburn couldn't have us in her classroom today, and I found Jessi. she was sitting outside in the park with some guy smoking a joint. The guy beside her. he was a homophobic looking guy with sort of a wanna-be-gangsta/druggie/loser/angry look to him. he looked like one of those guys that would pick on me if he could get away with it, and weren't too stoned to know what was going on most of the time.
so Jessi and I are chatting and we come to a lull in the conversation and the guy says "so... would you rather I call you Amy or Corrie?"
I was shocked. I told him "here I go by Corrie because it's my legal name, it's on all the attendance things, and everyone here knows me by it. even if it really mattered, I wouldn't be able to get everyone to call me Amy all the time. the part that really matters to me is pronouns"
he couldn't remember what a pronoun was
"she, her, that kind of thing."
"oh. alright, I'll do that. that was going to be my next question. I wasn't sure so I figured I'd ask. I remember seeing you at PCEP a while back and so it kinda came as a shock to see you like this this semester. I think it takes alot of guts to do what you're doing. especially here. people talk shit about you and shit, but I can really respect that you're just being your own person. I think that's cool"
then we talked about a few other issues, like my sexual preference, how surprised everyone was to hear I had a girlfriend and stuff.
Jessi mentioned that she's a lesbian and that everyone knows it here, and he said that's all fine and cool, it's just not for him.
he really surprised me. I guess maybe I needed a lesson in not taking people for their face value? I think we all need to be reminded of such things every once in a while. it was both humbling and made my day wonderfull. I'm glad I wasn't too afraid to go sit by him.
after he left I asked Jessi what his name was. Sheldon is a pretty cool guy I guess.
so today at lunch I was looking around for someone to eat with, since Ms Wilburn couldn't have us in her classroom today, and I found Jessi. she was sitting outside in the park with some guy smoking a joint. The guy beside her. he was a homophobic looking guy with sort of a wanna-be-gangsta/druggie/loser/angry look to him. he looked like one of those guys that would pick on me if he could get away with it, and weren't too stoned to know what was going on most of the time.
so Jessi and I are chatting and we come to a lull in the conversation and the guy says "so... would you rather I call you Amy or Corrie?"
I was shocked. I told him "here I go by Corrie because it's my legal name, it's on all the attendance things, and everyone here knows me by it. even if it really mattered, I wouldn't be able to get everyone to call me Amy all the time. the part that really matters to me is pronouns"
he couldn't remember what a pronoun was
"she, her, that kind of thing."
"oh. alright, I'll do that. that was going to be my next question. I wasn't sure so I figured I'd ask. I remember seeing you at PCEP a while back and so it kinda came as a shock to see you like this this semester. I think it takes alot of guts to do what you're doing. especially here. people talk shit about you and shit, but I can really respect that you're just being your own person. I think that's cool"
then we talked about a few other issues, like my sexual preference, how surprised everyone was to hear I had a girlfriend and stuff.
Jessi mentioned that she's a lesbian and that everyone knows it here, and he said that's all fine and cool, it's just not for him.
he really surprised me. I guess maybe I needed a lesson in not taking people for their face value? I think we all need to be reminded of such things every once in a while. it was both humbling and made my day wonderfull. I'm glad I wasn't too afraid to go sit by him.
after he left I asked Jessi what his name was. Sheldon is a pretty cool guy I guess.