5 AM Ramblings... :O
Apr. 10th, 2002 04:49 am![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
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transI really don't know what I'm expecting for responses, but I really don't know where else I could direct these questions, heh..
Basically, I'm not really sure if intend on transitioning or not... I'm quite sure that I'd be more happy, all other things being equal... but it seems like it'd cause so many problems... I've gone this long in my life without doing anything, so why can't I just continue like that? There are so many things that just make me think it'd be better to try to ignore it all... I've got a girlfriend that I've been together with for about a year, and she's really probably the most important thing in my life... she knows this bothers me, I tried to explain it to her once... but she doesn't know that I've really been considering doing anything about it...
It just seems like it'd complicate so many things... for the most part, it really doesn't seem like it'd be possible to marry, and the idea of children would be a lot more complicated... finicial problems could really make things worse, I still have doubts that I'd ever really be able to pass... and, in a way, I guess I kinda feel like I'd be decieving people, and myself...
Eh.. maybe that doesn't make a whole lot of sense.. but for those of you that have gone through all of this, what made you decide that it was all worth it..?
*sigh* I need sleep.. :O
Basically, I'm not really sure if intend on transitioning or not... I'm quite sure that I'd be more happy, all other things being equal... but it seems like it'd cause so many problems... I've gone this long in my life without doing anything, so why can't I just continue like that? There are so many things that just make me think it'd be better to try to ignore it all... I've got a girlfriend that I've been together with for about a year, and she's really probably the most important thing in my life... she knows this bothers me, I tried to explain it to her once... but she doesn't know that I've really been considering doing anything about it...
It just seems like it'd complicate so many things... for the most part, it really doesn't seem like it'd be possible to marry, and the idea of children would be a lot more complicated... finicial problems could really make things worse, I still have doubts that I'd ever really be able to pass... and, in a way, I guess I kinda feel like I'd be decieving people, and myself...
Eh.. maybe that doesn't make a whole lot of sense.. but for those of you that have gone through all of this, what made you decide that it was all worth it..?
*sigh* I need sleep.. :O