5 AM Ramblings... :O

[https://users.livejournal.com/-raya-/]

I really don't know what I'm expecting for responses, but I really don't know where else I could direct these questions, heh..

Basically, I'm not really sure if intend on transitioning or not... I'm quite sure that I'd be more happy, all other things being equal... but it seems like it'd cause so many problems... I've gone this long in my life without doing anything, so why can't I just continue like that? There are so many things that just make me think it'd be better to try to ignore it all... I've got a girlfriend that I've been together with for about a year, and she's really probably the most important thing in my life... she knows this bothers me, I tried to explain it to her once... but she doesn't know that I've really been considering doing anything about it...

It just seems like it'd complicate so many things... for the most part, it really doesn't seem like it'd be possible to marry, and the idea of children would be a lot more complicated... finicial problems could really make things worse, I still have doubts that I'd ever really be able to pass... and, in a way, I guess I kinda feel like I'd be decieving people, and myself...

Eh.. maybe that doesn't make a whole lot of sense.. but for those of you that have gone through all of this, what made you decide that it was all worth it..?

*sigh* I need sleep.. :O

Groups or lists for epeople who are involved with transgendered people

[scorpionturtle.livejournal.com]

I keep on dating and getting in relationshipsand friendships with transgendered people. These are wonderful experiences but I would like a group or something i can post to about the problems I've had with other dykes or hets over my attraction and friendship with transpeople. I surprised at the hostility I get from some dyke about liking tranny bois and trans men and I find that het people taend to make the assumption that I am really straight. Also I can not stand how everyone is always screaming for acceptance of genderqueers and bi-trans but why is it not ok for me to like ftms and mtfs. If I gender can be fluid why not our sexuality-why is it so frightening to people. and why is it frightening to people that are already getting treated bad for thier own sexual preferences? and I also hate how some people seem to think that a non-trans dyke can't be just friends with a trans person.anyways if anyone has links i would really be happy to get them. thanks

*Peeks in.*

[ex-whitelion584.livejournal.com]

Hey all, just wanted to give a sort of introductory post.

Ack. I knew it. As soon as I started to type this thing, my brain went completely dead and I lost all pretense of having anything interesting to say. Stupid brain. :P But after two hours of linear algebra homework, I can't blame it for shutting down.

Anywhoo, I'm a transgender/genderqueer from Indiana, biologically male. With the help of some friends here in college (*Waves at Caleb*), I've really come into my own as of late and taken possession of my non-traditional gender. :) Have to love having liberal activist friends who won't let "normal" society get them down.

Anyhow, just wanted to say a quick hello.

Ben