Hello

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Hey there everyone. I just was kinda looking to talk to someone. I'm a lesbian, and I moved to be with my girlfriend several states away. We've been together for about a year and a half now. She's been considering transitioning, and it's been really hard on me. I don't know what to do. I've told her to look into it.. that if she decided to go through with it, I'd be there with her.. but truthfully, it scares me to the core. I've never had an issue with transgenderism/transexuality or anything of the sort. It's just very different when it's someone that I've grown to love as she is. I need help in understanding this more clearly.. to better know what is involved..

What terrifies me is her changing. Not so much physically as mentally. I've gathered that testosterone shots can in some ways change people.. and just in general, I don't want to lose someone I love so much through change. My fear is that she'll be someone completely different... unrecognizable to me. And of course.. being a lesbian, I'm a little scared of the physical issue as well.

Basically.. I want to be better prepared.. I want to have an easier time with this. I just.. don't want to be scared or hurting anymore because of this possibility. And I think the best way is through knowledge.. I plan on spending the rest of my life with her, and therefore, if this is what she decides.. I need to work on myself. Please help me.