Hormone-Lag?

[soltice.livejournal.com]

I've been traveling a lot for work lately. In the last two weeks I've gone from western to eastern time. While I can easily deal with the jet-lag by sleeping on the plane, it seems that my hormones are another matter.

It seems that my emotions are a lot more volatile lately. I've felt terribly depressed in the morning and in the evening just prior to taking my dose. An hour or so later, I feel perfectly fine. Although I changed the time I take them to fit the local time zone, is it possible my body is still lagging behind?

Has anyone had something similar happen?

Nemesis.

[randilynpurrs.livejournal.com]

I seem to oscillate between being a girl(transsexual male-to-female) and genderqueer. I think my "genderqueerness" is simply my "natural" boy side trying to keep hold over me.

I hope that it will pass whenever I start HRT, because I hate that side of myself. I don't want to be a boy, I never liked being a boy. I just want 'him' to go away - forever.

Has anyone else here ever had problems like this? It's as if the person associated with my birth sex (and the sex that I was raised as for over 20 years) is my very own nemesis...

Cross-posted to several places.

Hello

[skiesrainpoetry.livejournal.com]

Hey there everyone. I just was kinda looking to talk to someone. I'm a lesbian, and I moved to be with my girlfriend several states away. We've been together for about a year and a half now. She's been considering transitioning, and it's been really hard on me. I don't know what to do. I've told her to look into it.. that if she decided to go through with it, I'd be there with her.. but truthfully, it scares me to the core. I've never had an issue with transgenderism/transexuality or anything of the sort. It's just very different when it's someone that I've grown to love as she is. I need help in understanding this more clearly.. to better know what is involved..

What terrifies me is her changing. Not so much physically as mentally. I've gathered that testosterone shots can in some ways change people.. and just in general, I don't want to lose someone I love so much through change. My fear is that she'll be someone completely different... unrecognizable to me. And of course.. being a lesbian, I'm a little scared of the physical issue as well.

Basically.. I want to be better prepared.. I want to have an easier time with this. I just.. don't want to be scared or hurting anymore because of this possibility. And I think the best way is through knowledge.. I plan on spending the rest of my life with her, and therefore, if this is what she decides.. I need to work on myself. Please help me.

Analogies, these.

[coniferous_you]

I was poking around some of the older entries in my journal and I found this neat quote that a friend of mine gave me regarding my transgender-related issues. They were prompted to give me this after I complained that actually moving from male to female was causing me some unexpected mental confusion (yeah, I was a bit romantic not to expect THAT.)and they responded with this:

"Think of it this way. Think of it like a birth. With any given birth, there is gestation beforehand. For the mother, there is this huge transformation going on inside of her and when the baby's ready to be born she'll go through a lot of pain and sometimes even stare death in the face, but when it's all over she's almost always altered for the better. The baby was born, but something new was also generated inside her mind. That's how personality issues work. You hit a point where you've gotta be yourself and it's the same thing. There's the pain, the overriding sense of transformation, the pain and, heck, it might almost kill you --- but, at the end of it, you're inevitably closer to finding congruity in yourself and more comfortable as a result."

I really hope this helps someone who's in the same situation,

Elena. (: