Nemesis.

[randilynpurrs.livejournal.com]

I seem to oscillate between being a girl(transsexual male-to-female) and genderqueer. I think my "genderqueerness" is simply my "natural" boy side trying to keep hold over me.

I hope that it will pass whenever I start HRT, because I hate that side of myself. I don't want to be a boy, I never liked being a boy. I just want 'him' to go away - forever.

Has anyone else here ever had problems like this? It's as if the person associated with my birth sex (and the sex that I was raised as for over 20 years) is my very own nemesis...

Cross-posted to several places.