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transHi all,
I began transition maybe three years back now & kinda went FT late last year. Slow progress ...
So, I was at this party last night at a really good friend's house. I'd figured there would be one or two people I'd not seen in a while and that they might be in for a surprise. HRT and two rounds of facial surgery means I'm very different these days and, sure enough, there were a few people who'd raised their eyebrows & stuff. No biggie - everyone was cool, as it happens.
However, to my point. There was one guy I've not seen in two years. We were good pals but we'd kinda drifted apart in the last while & I'd not seen him in ages. Apparently, he'd expected $boyname to maybe show up yet I ended up being introduced to him as Allie, as I am now.
The guy had no clue as to who I was. Not an inkling. So I smiled and said hello and, as we were about to talk, someone else whisked me away before I could explain things. I ended up getting caught up in other stuff and an hour or so later, I tried to find him but was told he'd gone home early.
I feel so bad about this. I think part of me didn't want to bring up 'old me', who's long gone now. But I should have called him over the last year or so and told him I was transitioning. I should have told him last night somehow. So today, I feel I need to call him up and explain what's happening. But where to start? And how do I explain this without him feeling like an idiot about last night?
Ugh! Sorry - just venting over here as I can't post in my own journal about this. :-/
I began transition maybe three years back now & kinda went FT late last year. Slow progress ...
So, I was at this party last night at a really good friend's house. I'd figured there would be one or two people I'd not seen in a while and that they might be in for a surprise. HRT and two rounds of facial surgery means I'm very different these days and, sure enough, there were a few people who'd raised their eyebrows & stuff. No biggie - everyone was cool, as it happens.
However, to my point. There was one guy I've not seen in two years. We were good pals but we'd kinda drifted apart in the last while & I'd not seen him in ages. Apparently, he'd expected $boyname to maybe show up yet I ended up being introduced to him as Allie, as I am now.
The guy had no clue as to who I was. Not an inkling. So I smiled and said hello and, as we were about to talk, someone else whisked me away before I could explain things. I ended up getting caught up in other stuff and an hour or so later, I tried to find him but was told he'd gone home early.
I feel so bad about this. I think part of me didn't want to bring up 'old me', who's long gone now. But I should have called him over the last year or so and told him I was transitioning. I should have told him last night somehow. So today, I feel I need to call him up and explain what's happening. But where to start? And how do I explain this without him feeling like an idiot about last night?
Ugh! Sorry - just venting over here as I can't post in my own journal about this. :-/
