I've got Reservations.....
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transThis is my second post as I'm slowly trying to work out my issues regarding my gender. One of the biggest issues I have is purely superficial - but I have to think it's not uncommon...
I'm a really good looking man. Sure, I'm not everyone's type - but I am often regarded as one of the best looking people in whatever social circle I am in. This poses a problem because I derive a lot of my self esteem over the fact that I am good looking. Now, when you add in my gender issues - I would not make a good looking female. Not to the point that I would consider myself attractive and, honestly, I think that would really bother me. That, for one, has been one of my biggest hangups.
So what does one do? Granted, there are beautiful women who were men - but I stand a solid 6' tall, with broad shoulders, and very manly features. I feel as if I would need total make over via plastic surgery to even make myself feel confident in the way I look if i were to make the transition. That's the only thing that's holding me up from at least really looking into it....
I guess is it better to be beautiful and feeling trapped in the wrong body or feeling at home in the right body but unhappy with my appearance? I'm sure everyone goes through these thoughts - but I wanted to voice them out loud......
I'm a really good looking man. Sure, I'm not everyone's type - but I am often regarded as one of the best looking people in whatever social circle I am in. This poses a problem because I derive a lot of my self esteem over the fact that I am good looking. Now, when you add in my gender issues - I would not make a good looking female. Not to the point that I would consider myself attractive and, honestly, I think that would really bother me. That, for one, has been one of my biggest hangups.
So what does one do? Granted, there are beautiful women who were men - but I stand a solid 6' tall, with broad shoulders, and very manly features. I feel as if I would need total make over via plastic surgery to even make myself feel confident in the way I look if i were to make the transition. That's the only thing that's holding me up from at least really looking into it....
I guess is it better to be beautiful and feeling trapped in the wrong body or feeling at home in the right body but unhappy with my appearance? I'm sure everyone goes through these thoughts - but I wanted to voice them out loud......