Girlie Night in... and out.
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transI don't know if this will make much sense to anyone but I've been feeling a lot more comfortable with myself since Saturday.
Spending my weekends in girl mode always centres me after a weeks stresses but something was even better this weekend. Perhaps it's down to the minor upset with Cathy earlier in the week when I refused to believe that anyone actually accepted me as female, or maybe because I was spurred on meeting another transwoman getting on with her life, it might even have been the hour and a half self-pampering session on Sunday but I feel totally centred now. Everything has smoothed out, tonight I'm changing in the car so I don't have to do the concert in guy mode and having another girly night with Josie after it.
Tomorrow I get to actually see my real cardiac consultant, which is when I'm going to hit her with hormone talk and get a final verdict on whether I'll be able to go private for medication whilst so precariously monitored for other conditions by the NHS, before rushing back for my second laser appointment.
In a couple of weeks time my parents are going on holiday and I might still be unemployed at that point, which to me just screams out as an oppertunity for some temporary full timing.
Last time my parents went on holiday and left me alone, my ears were peirced on their return... I wondering how they'd react to something else being different when they get back... specifically I was thinking my name, although if they're still going to impose rules I couldn't actually go fulltime with them back and having my name changed would be... problematic.
There has to be something I can do to show them I'm making progress.
Any ideas?
Spending my weekends in girl mode always centres me after a weeks stresses but something was even better this weekend. Perhaps it's down to the minor upset with Cathy earlier in the week when I refused to believe that anyone actually accepted me as female, or maybe because I was spurred on meeting another transwoman getting on with her life, it might even have been the hour and a half self-pampering session on Sunday but I feel totally centred now. Everything has smoothed out, tonight I'm changing in the car so I don't have to do the concert in guy mode and having another girly night with Josie after it.
Tomorrow I get to actually see my real cardiac consultant, which is when I'm going to hit her with hormone talk and get a final verdict on whether I'll be able to go private for medication whilst so precariously monitored for other conditions by the NHS, before rushing back for my second laser appointment.
In a couple of weeks time my parents are going on holiday and I might still be unemployed at that point, which to me just screams out as an oppertunity for some temporary full timing.
Last time my parents went on holiday and left me alone, my ears were peirced on their return... I wondering how they'd react to something else being different when they get back... specifically I was thinking my name, although if they're still going to impose rules I couldn't actually go fulltime with them back and having my name changed would be... problematic.
There has to be something I can do to show them I'm making progress.
Any ideas?