Rant

[shelleybear.livejournal.com]

I was talking to my GF about stealth and it's nature.
I have said in the past that the Upper peninsula of Michigan is "Stealth Central", but that is not the only reason I am pissed-off. I am pissed because as a 51 year-old who has started transition (200mgs of Spiro is certainly starting transition), I feel that rules don't apply to me.
How so?
Glad you asked (or not).
1)My age. I am old enough to understand and know what I want and to accept the boat load of problems that will go with it. I will not go stealth. I can't afford it and realize that if I could, it still wouldn't last.
2)My responsibility it ONLY to myself. I have no kids. Divorced six years.
3)My internal state has ruined much of my previous life. I know testosterone is bad for me. And all the situations it has screwed-up for me over the years. I don't need to have a board ask me if I'm sure over and over again.
4)As a person over 40 (and that's being charitable) there are few if in peer support groups. I truly envy the young.
5)Rush, rush,rush.

Bitch,bitch,bitch
Shelley