Coming out
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transHey guys. (sorry for spaming some of your lists)
A few years ago I was an exchange student in the US and now I want to write my host family a coming-out-letter. Since English is only my second language I would appreciate it if you could look over the letter and tell me what you thing. I would be thankful for any suggestions and corrections ;)
Ok, I’m not quite sure how to start and what to say.
Well, to be honest, that’s a lie. I know exactly what I want to say, I just don’t know how to say it, but I’ll try my best, because you are close to me, I care about you and you should know.
I am female to male transgendered, which basically means that my body is (still) female, but my soul is male.
Ever since I was little I never behaved like all the other girls I knew. I would always spend more time with the boys in the neighbourhood playing soccer, instead of playing with dolls and dressing up.
Occasionally I tried to fit in and be a ‘normal’ girl; mostly because I knew it made my mom happy when I was wearing dresses and such. It never felt right though.
At that time, I though I was just weird and I didn’t want to think about how I felt, because I didn’t want to be different. I always I knew I wanted to be a boy, but I told myself that this was crazy, so I didn’t share my feelings and thoughts with anybody.
A few years ago (after I left you to go back home) I read an article about a male to female transgendered person.
Even though I am the other way around, I felt like I read about myself, so I started looking for more information and finally I knew what was wrong with me ever since I started puberty.
I tried to ignore what I found out, but it was hard to life with it, so I started facing it and making up mind mind about the whole situation.
In the last two years I had my name legally changed into Lucas and I started taking hormones in January 2006, which means that I get shots of testosterone to get my hormone level to be like the one of a biological male.
The treatment has some ‘side effects’ which are actually welcome. I go through a second (and this time the right) puberty.
My voice has dropped a bit and my features look more masculine (but not that much.. l still look like me), my body looks more male (not including my ‘chest’).
In the future I will have chest-reduction surgery (mastectomy), maybe even phalloplastie, which basically means that they will form and build male genital out of skin from my arm, so that my body will finally mirror what has always been inside of me.
I don’t know why I haven’t told you sooner, I just couldn’t find the right words I guess. I wanted to put a lot of thoughts into this letter because it’s important to me that you understand what I am trying to say.
I’m still Sam. The only difference is that I finally know who and what Sam is. I finally know who I am and I hope I succeeded in making you understand what I was trying to say, and also hope that you will still see me as the person you got to know, while I was staying with you guys.
Love
Sam
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A few years ago I was an exchange student in the US and now I want to write my host family a coming-out-letter. Since English is only my second language I would appreciate it if you could look over the letter and tell me what you thing. I would be thankful for any suggestions and corrections ;)
Ok, I’m not quite sure how to start and what to say.
Well, to be honest, that’s a lie. I know exactly what I want to say, I just don’t know how to say it, but I’ll try my best, because you are close to me, I care about you and you should know.
I am female to male transgendered, which basically means that my body is (still) female, but my soul is male.
Ever since I was little I never behaved like all the other girls I knew. I would always spend more time with the boys in the neighbourhood playing soccer, instead of playing with dolls and dressing up.
Occasionally I tried to fit in and be a ‘normal’ girl; mostly because I knew it made my mom happy when I was wearing dresses and such. It never felt right though.
At that time, I though I was just weird and I didn’t want to think about how I felt, because I didn’t want to be different. I always I knew I wanted to be a boy, but I told myself that this was crazy, so I didn’t share my feelings and thoughts with anybody.
A few years ago (after I left you to go back home) I read an article about a male to female transgendered person.
Even though I am the other way around, I felt like I read about myself, so I started looking for more information and finally I knew what was wrong with me ever since I started puberty.
I tried to ignore what I found out, but it was hard to life with it, so I started facing it and making up mind mind about the whole situation.
In the last two years I had my name legally changed into Lucas and I started taking hormones in January 2006, which means that I get shots of testosterone to get my hormone level to be like the one of a biological male.
The treatment has some ‘side effects’ which are actually welcome. I go through a second (and this time the right) puberty.
My voice has dropped a bit and my features look more masculine (but not that much.. l still look like me), my body looks more male (not including my ‘chest’).
In the future I will have chest-reduction surgery (mastectomy), maybe even phalloplastie, which basically means that they will form and build male genital out of skin from my arm, so that my body will finally mirror what has always been inside of me.
I don’t know why I haven’t told you sooner, I just couldn’t find the right words I guess. I wanted to put a lot of thoughts into this letter because it’s important to me that you understand what I am trying to say.
I’m still Sam. The only difference is that I finally know who and what Sam is. I finally know who I am and I hope I succeeded in making you understand what I was trying to say, and also hope that you will still see me as the person you got to know, while I was staying with you guys.
Love
Sam
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