Dreams

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I've been thinking about my dreams more often lately, even though most are disjointed and scrambled, I've noticed that in my dreams, I'm usually in my teens, and male - socially and physically, but it's starting to shift and I'm female and like, "inbetween" more and more often as the years go by. I'm female maybe one in six of my dreams, and treated as such by the dreamscape inhabitants, which I know are all reflections and aspects of my self and people I've met or seen in movies, television, or read about in books.

I dunno, it's depressing to be my old self in my dreams, most of my dreams have to do with problems or negative situations. I'm usually still that girl inside a boy that's too frightened to come out. It bothers me, it's like junior high and high school all over again, almost every night.

Anyway, a couple questions for anyone that reads this, guys and gals and those between.

How do you see yourself in your dreams? How long did it take for your dream self to reflect the true self? Going full-time must help?