biological warfare

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This isn't new news, this is old news, remarkably old news in fact, but I only found out the full story two days ago, even though this happened when I was a wee small bairn (that's a Scottish term for child. I';m trying to familiarise myself with the language).

I wonder if anything like this happened to anyone else?


I used to think it was a bad dream, it has all the markers of a bad dream, futility, helplessness and indescribable pain, but I learned later that this actually happened when my mother and I were reminiscing about nightmares (bizarrely so long as I answer to a male name and don't mention being trans my mother and I get on fine, which is somewhat irritating) and upon mentioning it, she said "No, that actually happened."

Turns out in my childhood (like about 3 years old) one night I woke up screaming with pains in my genitalia and had to be rushed to hospital, where the specialist had to be pulled out of bed and was very rough and unhelpful.

All I recall is something remarkably painful in the tip of my penis and the doctor doing something even more painful to cure it.

I found out two days ago what actually happened that night.

My penis healed up.

It literally closed itself up. And upon hearing that I couldn't help but wonder if maybe (slim chance though it is) my body was fighting against the wee bastard even then.

As I said at the time ( two nights ago, when I found this out ) Maybe if they'd left it, it would have just gone back up inside and saved me a lot of bother in the long run.

It probably wouldn't, chanced are it would have just killed me, but it's a pleasant thought.


Anyone else have their body fight back during their youth?