Something a little lighter.
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transI'm speanding another week at Andy's.
It usually works out cheaper, more fun and more productive than staying in my parents house.
I'm hoping this time round It'll also be a little more healthy although so far no sign of such qualities have emerged.
Firstly I wanted to post some lyrics to a song I adore which, although the song isn't about transition in anyway, I think can act as quite a pick me up to the transitioning person, just because of some of the emotions conveyed within. I like listening to this in the car and I just learned the chords to play it myself :D
What To Do
OK Go
Come on in, sweetie-pie! Have an apple, have some lye...
Leave your friends, righteous and pathetic, standing at the door.
On the books, all your bets favor head-bands and cassettes,
cigarettes, suffragettes, and bores.
What to do?
Sweetheart, you'll find mediocre people do exceptional things all the time.
Oh, the ruin will do in your talented mind...
could've been a genius if you'd had an axe to grind.
When we moved to the city, it seemed the competition got so much less pretty
but the mirror's never failed you like this before.
So your revenge on the world will be pencils through your curls
and if wanting ever taught you anything, it's wanting more.
(and more and more and more...)
What to do?
Sweetheart, you'll find mediocre people do exceptional things all the time.
Oh, the ruin will do in your talented mind...
could've been a genius if you'd had an axe to grind.
What to do?
When that day finally nears, you'll at least have made it clear
that compassion's just a nicer way of looking down your nose.
It seems that all the people want to do is crowd the streets of Amsterdam
but the bulls have already come and gone and bellowed all their lows.
Now nobody knows
what to do.
Sweetheart, you'll find mediocre people do exceptional things all the time.
Oh, the ruin will do in your talented mind...
Could've been a genius if you'd had an axe to grind.
What to do?
I think that one line says it all "Mediocre people do exceptional things all the time."
Because the few times my subconscious allowed my desire to transition bubble to the surface during my youth, the first thing I would think is that sex changes were things people on TV did, you had to be special to do something like that. Ordinary people have to put up with what they're born with.
When I first heard of OK Go, it was that quirky dance video they did online, and from that Becca and I now own both their albums a signed vinyl record of the Million Ways Album, band T-shirts, and we've both been to see them live.
Another song of theirs which I like is called "Television Television", and it's basically about how TV can draw you in to the point where you suddenly realise it's 5am, you haven't slept yet and your entire body is covered with a thin greasy film because you havent moved in 8 hours. That's kind of what I like to do when I'm at Andy's house sometimes and it occurred to me.
I'm not on hormones yet so I have no breasts to speak of other than what the average man of my weight and build would muster. As such if I'm going to try to pass outside I have to use a rather large pair of forms. My laser isn't finished yet so I have to wear quite a bit of makeup to cover the darkening, especially on my top lip. And we've been over my goinal issues before so tucking is a must.
Now, the thought occurrs that often I do all this just to hang around the house. About 2 hours of prep just to sit about and do nothing. And that's maddening, so I've been doing it less and less and I'm feeling a kind of pseudo guilt that I'm somehow less feminine because It's easier to just chill out in a t-shirt and slacks.
But genetic women don't pad and primp and preen just to sit and watch TV, do they?
Should I feel guilty for not wanting the effort to look good in circumstances when I don't expect to actually be judged? Should I try to dress to impress 24/7?
And while I'm on it, should I wear heels more? I almost always wear flats because it's easier...
Opinions?
(Cross posted to my own journal too)
It usually works out cheaper, more fun and more productive than staying in my parents house.
I'm hoping this time round It'll also be a little more healthy although so far no sign of such qualities have emerged.
Firstly I wanted to post some lyrics to a song I adore which, although the song isn't about transition in anyway, I think can act as quite a pick me up to the transitioning person, just because of some of the emotions conveyed within. I like listening to this in the car and I just learned the chords to play it myself :D
What To Do
OK Go
Come on in, sweetie-pie! Have an apple, have some lye...
Leave your friends, righteous and pathetic, standing at the door.
On the books, all your bets favor head-bands and cassettes,
cigarettes, suffragettes, and bores.
What to do?
Sweetheart, you'll find mediocre people do exceptional things all the time.
Oh, the ruin will do in your talented mind...
could've been a genius if you'd had an axe to grind.
When we moved to the city, it seemed the competition got so much less pretty
but the mirror's never failed you like this before.
So your revenge on the world will be pencils through your curls
and if wanting ever taught you anything, it's wanting more.
(and more and more and more...)
What to do?
Sweetheart, you'll find mediocre people do exceptional things all the time.
Oh, the ruin will do in your talented mind...
could've been a genius if you'd had an axe to grind.
What to do?
When that day finally nears, you'll at least have made it clear
that compassion's just a nicer way of looking down your nose.
It seems that all the people want to do is crowd the streets of Amsterdam
but the bulls have already come and gone and bellowed all their lows.
Now nobody knows
what to do.
Sweetheart, you'll find mediocre people do exceptional things all the time.
Oh, the ruin will do in your talented mind...
Could've been a genius if you'd had an axe to grind.
What to do?
I think that one line says it all "Mediocre people do exceptional things all the time."
Because the few times my subconscious allowed my desire to transition bubble to the surface during my youth, the first thing I would think is that sex changes were things people on TV did, you had to be special to do something like that. Ordinary people have to put up with what they're born with.
When I first heard of OK Go, it was that quirky dance video they did online, and from that Becca and I now own both their albums a signed vinyl record of the Million Ways Album, band T-shirts, and we've both been to see them live.
Another song of theirs which I like is called "Television Television", and it's basically about how TV can draw you in to the point where you suddenly realise it's 5am, you haven't slept yet and your entire body is covered with a thin greasy film because you havent moved in 8 hours. That's kind of what I like to do when I'm at Andy's house sometimes and it occurred to me.
I'm not on hormones yet so I have no breasts to speak of other than what the average man of my weight and build would muster. As such if I'm going to try to pass outside I have to use a rather large pair of forms. My laser isn't finished yet so I have to wear quite a bit of makeup to cover the darkening, especially on my top lip. And we've been over my goinal issues before so tucking is a must.
Now, the thought occurrs that often I do all this just to hang around the house. About 2 hours of prep just to sit about and do nothing. And that's maddening, so I've been doing it less and less and I'm feeling a kind of pseudo guilt that I'm somehow less feminine because It's easier to just chill out in a t-shirt and slacks.
But genetic women don't pad and primp and preen just to sit and watch TV, do they?
Should I feel guilty for not wanting the effort to look good in circumstances when I don't expect to actually be judged? Should I try to dress to impress 24/7?
And while I'm on it, should I wear heels more? I almost always wear flats because it's easier...
Opinions?
(Cross posted to my own journal too)