Hello / An odd sort of transexual.

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    Hello group, first off I would like to say Hello and try to explain my own transgender feelings.  I am a male who feels a very strong female side, but it isn't the makeup and dress type of femininity.  I deeply admire females and feel I draw a lot of who I am from my years with my Lesbian aunt.  No female in my childhood really was all that 'girly' but there was a strength in them I couldn't find in the males.  Ironic as it is, most men I've met in my life have no hold on their own emotions, by ignoring them they are slave to them.

    Perhaps it was my aunts influence, but I always felt distant from other boys, always feeling different.  My feminine self grew stronger as I learned to love it, specially after reading "The Feminine Mystique" by Betty Friedan.  But, again, it wasn't the 'barbie doll' form of fem.  On top of that I began to realize that even with this type of feminity inside me, it was a type that could live in harmony with masculine traits.  It soon became easy for me to reconcile the fact that I was biologically male and yet felt like I had.  So in essence I am transgendered, but you'd never guess it :p.