Just a little introduction

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hey, guys. i'm jack, and i'm a seventeen-year-old ftm trans living in a very small town on vancouver island, BC. it's kind of a struggle to reach out to anyone about my issues here, which i suppose is why i joined this community. i don't know if there are many ftm's here, but either way, i'm sure there's a large amount of mutual understanding anyway. i'm hoping to start testosterone therapy when i get back from camp this summer, but my mother is adamantly against it and refuses to drive me to see my counsellor anymore upon hearing this. is this a normal reaction?? i know her pretty well and i'm disappointed, seeing as she's been fairly supportive since this self-discovery when i was about fourteen. maybe because it's beginning to take physical form that might be permanent, she's getting worried about it. to be honest, i'm starting to think she doesn't believe me at all, and she's told me a couple of times now that i'm convincing myself of this. i'm sure you guys have had problems with doubt coming at you from the exterior as well, especially within the family. i'm just having a hard time with it right now, because i haven't told anyone else in my family and life at home has gotten significantly depressing since this came up last week...