All these questions ... When I don't even understand it, how should somebody else have to be able to

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How the hell can you explain there's something wrong with you when you can't say what it is? I'm falling behind in school badly, and everybody thinks I'm just very lazy, while I just get very tired because of the whole depression thing. I mean, I want to work, but my mind always wanders off and I end up crying or sleeping. How do I tell them there's something wrong, without even saying what it is?

Also these cuts, everytime I cut, I cut deeper, longer and more. It's not good :\.

How the hell am I going to tell anybody something that I am deeply ashamed for, and I feel horrible about? How am I supposed to tell them while I haven't even come to peace with it myself? When I don't even understand why I feel this way?

...I'm at the end of my rope :(

- Suzanne