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[genocideboy.livejournal.com]

sorry for posting so much..

here is the very short, basic letter that i am (hopefully) showing to my teachers.

'For personal reasons, although my birth name is [name], it would be greatly appriciated if you called me 'Chris' and used male pronouns when refering to me. I hope it's not too late to start doing this.
Thank you.'

i guess that's it.

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[strangeandsour.livejournal.com]

What do people here know about the origin of the word "boi"?

I first came across the word when I lurked on a lot of goth communities, and it seemed like boi was a popular alternate spelling for boy. And clearly, it's used pretty often in trans communities for FTMs.

At volunteering a couple weeks ago (for those of you in the D.C. area, I volunteer at Whitman-Walker Clinic) I was talking to one of the other volunteers, and she told me that "boi" used to be used for physically mature men who weren't yet married. I'm killing myself right now because I can't remember what culture she was talking about when she told me this. It could have been a foreign culture (she had travelled widely, and I remember talking with her about the Philippines), but she might've been talking about the black community in the U.S. during the '60s.

At any rate, it seems that in each of these uses of the word, it almost always indicates masculinity that isn't the 100% machismo stereotype. FTMs are male, but not physically at birth. Goth guys are male, but quite a few of them wear make-up, and make-up is traditionally associated with girls. And in the context of the paragraph above, a male wasn't a "real man" until he had been married, and, by implication, started getting laid.

Anyone else have information or observations?

anyone out there?

[chrtasim.livejournal.com]

i'm posting this on here because barely anyone responds in my LJ i really need help with this.. you dunno how terrified i am.

i changed my schedule. i thought it was going to be a good change. so, i got into spanish today for the first time and i see someone that knew me as a girl. i'm thinking oh shit, now what.. and the definitely recognized me. i could see her laughing with her friend and staring at me. i don't know about anyone else but i don't find it very comforting to be laughed at. they got up continuously and walked around me you know.. looking around.. trying to find some breasts or whatever. it makes me really sad thinking about how tormenting this will be if everyone taunts me about this. i almost started crying in class.. but i caught myself. i felt like going to the couselor and telling her about it. but i realized.. i can't possibly make it four years without seeing them again or having a class with them... so i'm helpless. god i dunno how to handle this. i guess i'll be laughed at everytime i see them or worse beat up or just plain taunted by everyone.. its all over for me as a guy.

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[genocideboy.livejournal.com]

once again, i apologize for posting so much.
you're all so helpful, it's very comforting.
anyway.

bad news: i didn't show my teachers the letter. it stayed in my pocket the entire day. but after coming home and reading your replies to my last post, i'm glad i didn't show them. there's so much more i could say in it.

good news: i did tell them, directly, to call me chris. they just smiled and were like 'sure, no problem'. i don't really think there is much need for me to mention the 'male pronouns only' bit, because all but one of my classes have around 40 students, so there is hardly ever any references to her/him and she/he. as long as i have them calling me by the correct name during attendence, i'm happy.

also, i used the boys washroom today. woohoo. :D
..i also used the girls earlier, but only because i needed a tissue reallyreallyreally badly.
is that a valid excuse?

there's also a few of my friends who know me as female, but i figure that if a situation ever comes up where i have to explain that i am male, i will.
no problem.

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[waterispretty.livejournal.com]

All of you people coming out in high school really impress me. I didn't even realize what was going on with me until my junior year, and that was just because I met an ftm. The football players broke his legs when they found out that not only was he really fruity but he was also transgender. I had never even known that there were transgendered people out there and had always just considered myself a freak. That was almost three years ago, but I'm moving in with this really open-minded guy in New York on the 1st, so I'm thinking that I can maybe start living as a man a little bit after I move. I won't know anybody, except for my roommate, so it'll be kind of like a fresh start.

Seriously though, all of you on this community are so brave.