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transi'm posting this on here because barely anyone responds in my LJ i really need help with this.. you dunno how terrified i am.
i changed my schedule. i thought it was going to be a good change. so, i got into spanish today for the first time and i see someone that knew me as a girl. i'm thinking oh shit, now what.. and the definitely recognized me. i could see her laughing with her friend and staring at me. i don't know about anyone else but i don't find it very comforting to be laughed at. they got up continuously and walked around me you know.. looking around.. trying to find some breasts or whatever. it makes me really sad thinking about how tormenting this will be if everyone taunts me about this. i almost started crying in class.. but i caught myself. i felt like going to the couselor and telling her about it. but i realized.. i can't possibly make it four years without seeing them again or having a class with them... so i'm helpless. god i dunno how to handle this. i guess i'll be laughed at everytime i see them or worse beat up or just plain taunted by everyone.. its all over for me as a guy.
i changed my schedule. i thought it was going to be a good change. so, i got into spanish today for the first time and i see someone that knew me as a girl. i'm thinking oh shit, now what.. and the definitely recognized me. i could see her laughing with her friend and staring at me. i don't know about anyone else but i don't find it very comforting to be laughed at. they got up continuously and walked around me you know.. looking around.. trying to find some breasts or whatever. it makes me really sad thinking about how tormenting this will be if everyone taunts me about this. i almost started crying in class.. but i caught myself. i felt like going to the couselor and telling her about it. but i realized.. i can't possibly make it four years without seeing them again or having a class with them... so i'm helpless. god i dunno how to handle this. i guess i'll be laughed at everytime i see them or worse beat up or just plain taunted by everyone.. its all over for me as a guy.
