Be who you want to be

[jennyemily.livejournal.com]

I have finally realised what has been missing for the last four or so years - the liberation of no longer having to pretend, and lead a charade.

To be honest is the best thing I have ever done. I don't know why I was lying (or at least avoiding telling) my parents) as now things are simpler. It is hard to live a double life, whereby I had to slink in and out of here with baggy jumpers on to hide the fact that I was wearing my proper clothes underneath. It is taxing and stressful and not condusive to being able to be me. Now that is changing - it is happening! And it feels so weird, yet liberating at the same time.

I have hacked the jungle, cleared the path, and suddenly after the worry and fears that I was lost in the wilds, the bushes have parted and I have found the jungle trail I knew was here and needed to follow for too long. The path is clear before me. I know where I am going.

The sleeper awakes. I am the sleeper.

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[kali-lindar.livejournal.com]

Since I have to wear "girl" clothes regularly to keep my parents happy, does this make me a crossdresser as well as transgender? Or does it only count if I do so voluntarily.

Saturday I felt pressured, so I wore an extra feminine outfit and even tried on makeup. The result was... a disaster. And it felt so unbelievably wrong and... unbelievable.

And I had a laugh when my mom made a comment about "you wanting to be a boy". No mother dear, I want to be a /man/. Boys are icky. *lirf*

But life is good. Friday I went to pick up my little brother from school when some dog jumped out at me which made me jump back, and the owner goes "down Rex, you're scaring him". "Him" being reference to me. I smiled. Maybe sunshine isn't so bad.

Help Request

[ellehina.livejournal.com]

Cross posted to comingout , mtf , and transgender . If this is not alright please delete this post.

ABOUT ME - I am a rather inexperienced independent film maker. I have been writing screenplays for several years now and hope to complete my first project within the next 18 months. I am seeking assistance on researching a project that is currently in the early planning stages. I am a married bisexual polyamorous woman. I have been married to a wonderful man for ten years and we have two beautiful daughters together.

 

ABOUT THE PROJECT – A movie touching on the subjects of bisexuality, polyamory and accepting yourself. But most importantly about a transgender individual.

 

SYNOPSIS - A young married couple is heading for divorce. They decide to seek out marriage counseling. The counselor helps them to discover that their unhappiness is not due to each other but each to themselves. They have been trying to hide who they really are from themselves even. Once they are confronted with who they really are and they begin to accept themselves things begin to immediately get better in their relationship, though life in general suddenly becomes harder. The wife is confronted with the fact that she is bi and poly. The husband is confronted with the fact that he is transgender and poly. Both spouses immediately accept the nature of their other spouse as something they somehow knew all along and they help each other along the road of finding true happiness.

 

ORIGIN OF THIS PROJECT – The idea has been in my head to write a movie involving the subject of polyamory for some time. After some very trying times my husband and I had come to a realization that we were both bisexual and that we were polyamorous. I started throwing the idea around after we had started dating a couple and begun discussing the idea of my husband eventually dressing in drag sometimes, perhaps even performing eventually. But something about the ideas I was throwing around did not feel right. Finally recently through further discussion my husband finally admitted that he wants to live his life as a woman and is transgendered. And now finally I feel I have a basis for my story. However I  do not have enough experience to write confidently from, and I have no desire to wait ten or twenty years to write this screenplay. So I am asking for help in getting some thoughts on this movie and to get ideas for the highs and lows as a man works towards the goal of becoming a woman. Please consider if you have any thoughts on the following questions.

 

1. If there was one thing you could get across with a movie like this what would it be?
2. What would you say has been the hardest thing for you in going through this transition?
3. What has been one of the greatest joys for you?
4. Are there any personal anecdotes or stories you would like to share with me that I could perhaps use in the telling of this story?

Please keep in mind that anything you share with me I may use in the course of writing this screenplay so do not share anything you would not want to see in print/on the big screen.

 

Thank you very much for any help you can provide.

blue pill or the red pill?

[juliecd.livejournal.com]

So when it came time to take that first one, what was going through your mind?

x-posted.

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[rayebs.livejournal.com]

It is so incredibly disheartening to have someone who you admire for their intelligence and their logic tell you that you think that homsexuality and transdenderism is all in the mind and that the transtion to treat transdenderism is bad. Because it is all in the mind the treatment should be all in the mind.


I resepcted this person, but to show me their closed way of thinking like that, it disgusts me, so much to tears...

And i'm just sending out my condolences to anyone who has to deal with people who think like this on a more regular basis. A family member, a spouse, a friend, a coworker. I'm lucky in that it is just an online friend and i'm not the person he disaproves of but my gf. and i just feel horrible for those who have to deal with the likes of that on a closer basis.

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