Be who you want to be
Mar. 15th, 2005 08:47 am![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
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transI have finally realised what has been missing for the last four or so years - the liberation of no longer having to pretend, and lead a charade.
To be honest is the best thing I have ever done. I don't know why I was lying (or at least avoiding telling) my parents) as now things are simpler. It is hard to live a double life, whereby I had to slink in and out of here with baggy jumpers on to hide the fact that I was wearing my proper clothes underneath. It is taxing and stressful and not condusive to being able to be me. Now that is changing - it is happening! And it feels so weird, yet liberating at the same time.
I have hacked the jungle, cleared the path, and suddenly after the worry and fears that I was lost in the wilds, the bushes have parted and I have found the jungle trail I knew was here and needed to follow for too long. The path is clear before me. I know where I am going.
The sleeper awakes. I am the sleeper.
To be honest is the best thing I have ever done. I don't know why I was lying (or at least avoiding telling) my parents) as now things are simpler. It is hard to live a double life, whereby I had to slink in and out of here with baggy jumpers on to hide the fact that I was wearing my proper clothes underneath. It is taxing and stressful and not condusive to being able to be me. Now that is changing - it is happening! And it feels so weird, yet liberating at the same time.
I have hacked the jungle, cleared the path, and suddenly after the worry and fears that I was lost in the wilds, the bushes have parted and I have found the jungle trail I knew was here and needed to follow for too long. The path is clear before me. I know where I am going.
The sleeper awakes. I am the sleeper.
