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[ftmwolfcasey.livejournal.com]

( Rambling )

Transferring therapists and orchis

[foxxygirltamara.livejournal.com]

I'm going to be going to school in the Fall and I won't be able to see my therapist. Unfortunately, I'll be a couple months shy of my year (about 9 months). Can I transfer to another therapist near my school and still only have 3 months to go?

This is relavent because I'm trying to get my surgery letter. There's no way I'm going to be able to afford SRS in the near future (although I think I might be able to do it on a 10-year timeline) but I'm looking into getting an orchi next summer. Also, does anyone have any experience along those lines? An orchi would help me to manage my hormones easier (and thus save money as well as benefitting my health). It would also remove a large part of my "bulge" which I have to tuck away. Also, it would enable me to get my birth certificate corrected.

I try not to focus on that part of my body and on physical transition things but I do want SRS if I can get it and I need the letter to do that.

Does anybody have experience with transferring therapists or with orchis?

UPCOMING Conference.

[pirate-poet.livejournal.com]

 

New England LGBTQQIAF 'Breakout' College Conference 2005

This is a college conference for Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, Transgendered, Queer, Questioning, Intersex, Allie, and Fluid College Students. April 8th thru 10th at the University of New Hampshire, Durham. Keynote speakers will include: Matt Foreman, Ru Paul Andre Charles, and The Female Orgasm. Entertainment and Activities will include: Paul Ramsey (Hypnotist), Buddy Wakefield (Slam Poet, Comedian), Kristy Martell (Folk Musician), Workshops, A Drag Ball, A Dance, Raffles, Huge Give-Aways, Free Food and Drink, Venders, Gender Jam, and MUCH MORE.

April 8th thru 10th, Memorial Union Building, University of New Hampshire, Durham

Deadline: April 7th, 2005

Contact: UNH Alliance, NHTREE, breakoutconference@gmail.com, , , www.unh.edu/breakout

Work

[foxxygirltamara.livejournal.com]

So I need a job. I've been putting off looking for work because of my transition and the awkwardness surrounding it. I want to get my name and gender changed ASAP, and before Fall Quarter. I don't know what exactly counts as "full-time" but there aren't any areas of my life where I specificially am in "boy-mode" so it's certainly awkward to have to work as a boy.

I need a job soon but should I wait until I have my license changed up (I think the gender change takes 2 weeks to process so I'd be done before the end of April)? Should I just apply and pretend to be a boy until I make my legal changes? Should I come out at work? Should I go to the interview as myself or as a boy? I'd be working with the public (I'm applying at Home Depot -- where my friend and her bf work) so would there be an issue with being myself in my work situation? At school (the local community college), people treat me respectfully and as me but would there be a difference with customers and co-workers/managers?

If I waited until I got my license and other paperwork fixed, would that help anything? Wouldn't the "former names" question give me away anyway?

So how much of a problem has work been for you guys? The city where I'd be working has more of a reputation for crack cocaine and homeless people than for tolerance, diversity and respect. It'd be different if I was working in a big city like Seattle but this is Everett -- a Navy, shipping and industrial town. Should I expect acceptance or should I just hide myself in a shell again? Will they just silently pass over me if they figure it out (application in the trash, never call back after the interview)? Will they fire me under the guise of something else?

What should I do?

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[kandistarr.livejournal.com]

I am writing my English paper on trans-persons. I was hoping that you all could help me.

Simply email me (RainbowKandiKitty@yahoo.com) or comment and tell me what form of trans best describes you, a bit about yourself and your experiences being trans, any examples of discrimantion or transphobia you have experienced and what you think can be done to make you feel safer and promote understanding.

ANY help is appreciated. Thanks in advance.
~Tonia

Where are we going?

[girlabomination.livejournal.com]

Something enters my mind every now and then that I wonder if is true for other transgender people. That is... within my mind I have a very clear, very distinct image of myself as a woman. I tend to refer to it as my "Anima" but then, distinguishing between anima and animus becomes somewhat difficult for somene who is TG (Yeah, I'm a Carl Jung fan). I have been drawing her since I first started drawing, I have been writing characters that look like her since I was in ... either middle or high school, and most recently I created an image of her in photoshop that looks more like a real person than an anime character You can see it on my user info page -- a few people tell me that she looks like she could be a sister. This is probabally because I used a few of my current features in constructing her. :) Afterall, she is me. I speak in the 3rd person while exploring my soul because there are so many different parts -- it's easier to navigate that way.

Needless to say, if I were faced with a lineup I could pick her out among women with similiar features. When I am not actively looking at myself, or thinking about myself I accept that appearance as my own. For example while chatting with someone in messanger or in a chat room I'll say something like "Hey, we blondes aren't that bad, it's the fake ones you have to worry about!" in response to a dumb blonde comment -- not because I'm lying or trying to mislead, but because it feels more genuine than anything else to say about my appearance. When I settled on her name it wasn't like naming a child it was "Of course she's a Justine. What else would she be?" but then, perhaps that's because over half of the new people I meet that see my name in writing add an an E at the end. Perhaps it's the collective unconscious at work (more Jung, mwa huh huh -- I adore his model of the mind and universe).

Furthermore I often feel "phantom" sensations which are somewhat difficult to describe. The best way perhaps is to compare to "phantom pains" that amputees sometimes experience in the limbs that they no longer have. That is, I'll brush or blow hair out of my face when in body I have the buddhist monk or kemotherapy (spelling?) look going, while expriencing sexual fantasies I seem to be feeling through parts that I don't have in body, and my skin "feels" smooth in some areas (fore arms thighs, etc) until I make a point to actually explore the physical body.


All of this is opposed to a more general feeling that a person is a physical embodyment of the wrong gender. "I should look more ike a woman, and that's not this." This is somewhat difficult for me to put well into words because I'm trying not to sound condescending -- it's not my intention. Ahh.. OK here's a better way to phrase it. F => M TG people can swap the words man and woman if they'd like to make it more applicable. :)

"Are you a woman possessing a masculine shell, or is it more accurate to say that you identify more as a specific woman in a divergant body?"

I'd really like to hear what people have to say to this. I sometimes wonder if I just have a wyld (I tried typing wild, but it looked better with a "y") mind, or if perhaps it's fairly common for others in our community to experience the same things.

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[genocideboy.livejournal.com]

going to toronto tomorrow morning until wednesday.

on tuesday i will be spending the day at camh (the center for addiction and mental health, formally known as the clarke institute).
schedule is as follows:
9am - psychiatrist.
10:30am - endocrinologist.
1pm - psychologist.
3pm - another psychologist.

wish me luck, and please send me especially good vibes at 10:30 that day.

x-posted.