La lalalala, You're not a Tough Guy

[crimsonwolf82.livejournal.com]

x-posted in my journal

We(me, mom, evan, manda) were sitting around watching tv yesterday, a commercial for eHarmoney comes on.  for those who don't remember, quite a few of us tried to go on eHarmoney sometime last spring and were told that they couldn't find anyone for us...let's see I believe it was not only me, but 4 of my friends.  But the point being I brought up that fact to Evan, who had said he thought it would be a good service.  Even though he's been dating my sister for two years so why the hell would he need an online dating service? 

The real and true point being this conversation that followed:

Mom:Well, you are always giving those outrageous answers.

Me:I was nothing but honest.

Mom:Well, I think that you're not too honest with yourself about somethings that you say.

Me:...

Point a loaded gun at me why don't you?!?!?!  That was totally aimed at my being trans, coz she said it in that way where she'll take her shot at me, not say anything else, and then not ask me where I'm going when I get up to leave the room.  Even Manda and Evan felt it, the room got so fucking tense...of course that's because I unleashed the death stare.  It's not the fact that she's against it, because most parents are.  But that fact that she takes what should have been a light hearted moment, and turns it into a opportunity to let me know that she still thinks that this is just something that the counselling center put in my head.

I do understand why she can't accept it, I don't understand why she won't talk to me about why?  And it's not something I can even bring up.  It's always been her decision to bring it up, I told her that when I came out.  I let her know that if she doesn't want to talk about we won't, and that I won't bring it up if she doesn't want me to.  But to take cheap shots like that...well that makes her a bitch.

 

Eating Disorders in the Transgender Community

[empathicdesign.livejournal.com]

I'm not sur if I've ever seen this topic discussed before as it relates speciffically to TG folks. Sometime around my birthday (January 28) I became absolutely horrorfid when I looked a the scale and discovered I was 198 pounds, I didn't feel I looked it, but no less it was a frightful number. Afterwards I began devoting myself to weightloss by modifying my diet, when I eat, and most recently working out for 3-4 hours 2-4 times a week. I currently weigh 179 (as of a few minutes ago), and I feel like moving this fat from and around my body is becoming an obcession. My initial goal was to get down to 175, but the more I continue the more appealing 165 seems to me.

So far this seems to be more a weight loss / eatind disorder post, but I know that alot of the passion inside me for doing from this is that the way I see myself is not a pudgey fellow, but a slender, delecate, but otherwise not extraordinary woman.

Does anyone here have thoughts on wheteher EDs are more prevalent in our community, or if we are more or less just like everyone else when it comes to weightloss?

Thanks,
Justine

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh

[serielle.livejournal.com]

Therapist: Can't start hormones till early may at the absolute earliest. You're not ready for it. You also need to be passing as a female in school, place of work or volenteer activity before getting hormones.
Mother: Can't do any gender stuff till school year is over. You don't get privileges till you graduate.

No gender stuff= can't get laser or electrolysis. I simply cannot get a clean shave on my face because it's too sensitive, and even a shave that leaves stubble mangles it. No electrolysis/laser means no passing as a woman, which is bullshit to begin with. Can't even get hormones to stop my facial hair from getting thicker, so I'll need to be getting it lasered at a rate faster than it thickens. Which shouldn't be all that difficult since it doesn't thicken quickly, but it's still counterproductive.

Me: Is there any aspect of my life that I can still decide for myself?


Anyone know a laser/electrolysis place in Virginia?

Crossposted to my journal.