Thanks. buddy.

[moogiewoogie.livejournal.com]

On the way back from a friend's house, I was going to a convenience store to get some change. I had to get it so that I could ride the bus today, and the way things were, I didn't have enough to make it.

I walked in. There was a guy standing in the middle of the floor eating Combos. I went to the ATM, and that's when he said it.

"I think that's a guy, but I'm not sure. What is it?" The attendant had a shocked look on her face. There were many times that I'd stay there and talk with her late. She and I are what you could call acquaintances, and she was in disbelief that he would say that sort of thing about me when I was less than five feet from him. "That's a girl. Hey, how are you girl?!" She looked at me like a deer looks at the front end of a speeding Buick.

I was also dumbfounded. I held a casual conversation while the guy sat there, eating his Combos and muttering to himself. I was a mix of every emotion in the book, whether that's anger, sadness, despair, and happiness, since I spent the night watching a movie with my new friend. I got two sodas and all the change I would need. After doing that, I went outside and drove away. As I was driving down the hill, a thousand thoughts went through my mind in a blur. I should've said something back...said something...anything! But I didn't. I just...I just played it off and walked away, like a scared, scared little rat.

I came home and sat down in the dark. The wind was whipping outside, and I started listening to music and writing poetry. I couldn't sleep for another four hours. I ran the gamut of every emotion once more, and eventually fell asleep while the Moonlight Sonata played, tears on my cheeks and a grimace on my face.

Whoever you are, stranger, thank you for being an insensitive jerk.

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[deamondamien.livejournal.com]

yanno, a big part of the reason I doubt I'll ever transition fully(besides being oddly comfortable with androgyny)is that I'll NEVER be able to pull off looking like anything other then a 13 year old boy. I'm 22 years old, I don't want to be percieved as some pre-teen. I think it's an unfortunate curse. I'm barely 5'4, and weigh between 100 and 106 on a good day, my bones are just built tiny. For a girl, I suppose, I have a pretty good figure... I can make the chest dissapear, I can put on a bandana, loose pants and a loose shirt, but I still look female. I can't seem to get away from it. I'm just too fine-boned to pull off a masculine look, and I'm not interested in messing with my hormones (at least not at this point in life)

my roomate calls me a 'genderfuck' (in a loving way) because I seem like such a mix of the genders. I'm learning to be content with this, because it's probably the best I'm going to get.

She did get me a packer for christmas though. That made my holiday. Now if only my girlfriend didn't want to do evil things like take it to starbucks in her purse and shock everyone with it... *dies laughing*

any tips for a non-medically-transitioning ftm at looking more masculine and NOT like a gawky pre-teen?

- Damien -

swapping mones

[gal-with-a-gun.livejournal.com]

Hello, i'm Shannon, a full time TG with no future plan for SRS, Ive been taking microgynon 50 for almost 3 years. (50 micrograms of ethinylestradiol, 125 micro of levenorgestrel) I suppose that by now ive experienced the full effects of the drug as far as breast development is concerned however im now experiencing the adverse effect of a reduction in libido and sexual function....as a non op tg this is a concern that I shared with my endo who recomended a switch to a lesser dose of 0.62mg of Premarin in order to preserve function.

I was just wondering if anybody who's swapped mones can advise me about any adverse physical or psychological effects, such as depression or anxiety.

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[velvetlament.livejournal.com]

Tonight at 10pm(EST) on the E channel is Dr. 90210 and there's a transwoman. Just figured people might want to watch.