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[deamondamien.livejournal.com]

yanno, a big part of the reason I doubt I'll ever transition fully(besides being oddly comfortable with androgyny)is that I'll NEVER be able to pull off looking like anything other then a 13 year old boy. I'm 22 years old, I don't want to be percieved as some pre-teen. I think it's an unfortunate curse. I'm barely 5'4, and weigh between 100 and 106 on a good day, my bones are just built tiny. For a girl, I suppose, I have a pretty good figure... I can make the chest dissapear, I can put on a bandana, loose pants and a loose shirt, but I still look female. I can't seem to get away from it. I'm just too fine-boned to pull off a masculine look, and I'm not interested in messing with my hormones (at least not at this point in life)

my roomate calls me a 'genderfuck' (in a loving way) because I seem like such a mix of the genders. I'm learning to be content with this, because it's probably the best I'm going to get.

She did get me a packer for christmas though. That made my holiday. Now if only my girlfriend didn't want to do evil things like take it to starbucks in her purse and shock everyone with it... *dies laughing*

any tips for a non-medically-transitioning ftm at looking more masculine and NOT like a gawky pre-teen?

- Damien -