Need advice

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First a quick history...

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Now the problem...

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Cross posted in mtf, transgender, and my own LJ

The doctors are shitty in Eshowe

[danizana.livejournal.com]

I have been having a rough time, trying to get proper hormones, well
I went to the hospital with the letter from my doctor, and i met the hospital doctor, who was going to or should have given me my prescription, but I waited for an hour, then he came back saying he cannot give me my medication. He asked if i still had my male thing, i cant lie, well i should have... but he might have asked me to strip..:-/
so I told him the truth and he said he cannot give me the pills unless i had my op,..
I told him bullshit... i know 2 people like myself in this country who have been on these pills before there op, like Tina for example...
Well he said the policy has change, and its illegal what i am doing, and i can end up in jail! also he said what i am doing is wrong, and i will still have the male ID digit on my ID even after the op which is lies because Tina and Enya have the female ID digit... I was so out of words, my heart pounded... and i tried not to cry or burst my frustration and anger on him or myself... which would resulted in a situation which the people know on the Dana lists...

So i dismissed him apologising him for waisting my time... since i should have been studying and working on the graphic I am working on...
So I went home, and thaught I must phone Enya for some advice or she can speak with the doctor somehow, since she has better background on treatment in my country and such... I phoned, she was not available, so left a message... then i thaught maybe i phone the work , she not there, forgot she was on a business trip... well i was suprised that she has a new employee answering the phones, kind of made me a bit upset...and thust thaught, anyway.. well wished the employee well, and thaught of another plan. I phoned the owner of www.genderdynamix.co.za the site which i cant seem to log in..like my music account for myspace.com to upload my music for some minor publicity.. well I phoned her up and asked her for some advice and she said she will help me but she can only contact my GP next week because he has also gone on a trip... but i hope he checks his emails....
So i am very angree and frustrated... in fact pissed off at the doctor at the hospital, and I hope he gets that TB... as the mutant TB case just arrived in Eshowe this afternoon, so i missed it, thank heavens..Know one else knows since its all hushed so people dont pannick.I am getting my mask tomorrow. I will confirm with the Zululand University chap who met me on www.justincase.co.za profile listings who works for bio-genetics department to see how serious this new TB realy is... since the news papers say its like SARS , no worse, like airborne AIDs...

Well I see a big battle ahead of me and for the Transsexuals in the Natal region of South Africa....I wish i was still at the Cape region , working for Enya...i would have had a 70% chance if i stayed with her that i would be on proper pills., anyway shit happens...

I have a copy of the letter which was from my GP to hospital doc here:
Dear Doctor
Danielle Lamb is a Transsexual
who asks to be given oestrogen
replacement therapy as he(the doc did not write she) cannot afford to purchase this.
Would you consider writing up these for him?
many regards
Doctor Balbassini...

So i my GP does not refere me as she and her... why? will he only call me proper pronouns after my SRS ? which is still a long way ahead...??

anyway this is a big battel...and its bullshit i have to fight against.
Love
Danielle
((^_^))

Transgender Parenting Resources?

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Does anyone have links or know of books that would be good research for a transguy (like myself) looking into adopting a child?