More Teenage Nostalgia!

[the-mouse-king.livejournal.com]

Brad sent me one last picture he took senior year of high school.
I think this is one of the very few in my life up to that point that I'd actually POSED for.

( GUESS WHICH ONE IS ME!!! (Possible trigger) )

*poke*

[heartslaught.livejournal.com]

This is my first first posting in this community, even though lurking for quite some time now.

This will probably be my only post on here... nothing wrong with everyone here, I'm just the type to likes to stay behind the scenes. Anyhow, down to business.

I'm a 21 year old male to female transsexual who lives in the Pittsburgh Area, currently going to the University of Pittsburgh as a Physics Major, junior year. I've been on hormones for the last seven months or so, and liking the results I've had so far. I currently room with a few friends, who all know what I'm doing *I'm enfemme every-other day around the house now... if not more often* and are very supportive. To be straight forward, all those close to me now know after about 10 months of coming out to everyone necessary. This includes family and friends, and all are supportive to an extent (difference in opinions with mother and father with me being on hormones, that's about it), and everyone is accepting. To say I've been lucky in that respect is an understatement. So why make this post?

To be honest outside my family and close friends, I'm a very shut-off person from most other people, period. Therefore in the year that I've been slowly making (and trust me, I've been doing this at a slow pace) my transitioning, I've been unable to possibly meet any peers who might be also be transsexual, and be within the Oakland/Squirrel Hill area. I'm not going to rush up to anyone asking them if I might suspect something. I'm not one to go to support groups or anything like that mainly for the fact that knowing 95%+ of those transitioning are older than me... at times more than twice my senior. Therefore making it very hard to relate, and have made this very clear to my therapist. Not to mention... I tend to harshly shun people I don't consider intelligent, and I come off as a cocky know-it-all... if you knew my past this would be obvious as to why once sitting someone down and explaining it to them.

After this long-winded post, I was wondering if there was anyone within the area, and similiar age to myself that I could converse with and maybe start to talk to. My friends and family are wonderful and all, but I need to reach out and see who else is out there, like myself or not, and start to see the world a little here.

I prefer to be contacted by AIM/e-mail.
E-mail: heartslaught@gmail.com
AIM: heartslaught

Thanks,
Cat.

Help?

[the-mouse-king.livejournal.com]

I have a problem.
Well, it's not really a problem or a dilemma or anything; and it's not really bothering me; in fact, it's not negative at all. I guess it's just something I need to talk about.

Today, I realized something that's caused me to be unable to eat, sleep, or even concentrate on much of anything.
Today, I realized that I am in love.

It's a bit more complicated than that, even though a very good friend once told me that "when you're in it, you'll understand it's far more simple than you think." And my friend is right.
The kind of love I am in ... I don't want to mess it up. I feel as though I've known him/her forever, one of the best friends I could ever ask for.

But this isn't a romantic sort of feeling. There are no moments when I feel I must grab him/her by the arms and make-out, no no. It's difficult to describe and yet so basic. S/He has an addictive personality and is a good person, the sort you enjoy being around. S/He makes me feel comfortable and secure, that it's completely safe for me to be me. And I'm able to talk to him/her about anything; I even feel comfortable sitting in total silence with this person.

I never feel as though I have to impress him/her. I never feel inadequate or like I should censor myself for his/her sake. I can be me at all times, and even if the rest of the world doesn't approve of my existence, then at least s/he does.
This is someone I want to grow old with, someone I want to be there at my side come the world's end.

Ultimately, this isn't a romance I'm going to pursue---perhaps because I'm worried I might fuck up, but mostly because I feel like I don't need to.
I suppose that the real reason for this post was just to get my feelings off my chest and out there.
And possibly to ask for advice.

... suggestions?

So I Woke-UP at 4:30 Ayem

[shelleybear.livejournal.com]

With a slight feeling of discomfort.
Turned over and thought:
"Hmmmmm Crushed boob."
W.T.F.?!
Yeah, growth spurt last night (no one told me stuff like this would happen).
My sweeties actually have some heft to them.
Yay me!

LHR for Chest and Back

[mon462.livejournal.com]

Here is my situation. I'm 42 with dark hair and a light complexion. Not too much grey yet. I've had 4 laser sessions on my face. And I just started spiro (50mg 2x/day) last week. I plan to start E in 2-3 months.

I'm seriously considering having laser done on my chest and back. In fact, I made the appointment for 2 weeks from now. Am I being premature? Should I give the spiro 2 - 3 months to start working before I have my chest and back zapped? Or, like the beard, is it better to start now?

I'm looking for thoughts and experiences that anyone would like to share on this.

A random hormone question. (cross posted)

[playingwithice.livejournal.com]

Hey all, I have a question that I thought of when I was giving my friend the Cliffs Notes version of what hormones do for trans people.
MTF's take Spiro (Spironolactone I believe) to block their testosterone. Does anyone know if there is anything comparable out there for FTM's that would block estrogen?
If it was possible to block estrogen, would my own natural T (which is higher than it should be for female, but still well below normal male level) have any more effect in masculinizing things? I'm pre-T so a head start might be nice, as well as to be able to do something with what my body has right now, and to cut back on the estrogen floating around. (Maybe stop periods?)
If anyone has any ideas on this I'd appreciate hearing them.
Edit: Since it wasn't so clear, I'm pretty much pre-everything at this point.

(no subject)

[sam-simonon.livejournal.com]

Here's my other blog where I write more my tg-stuff,
just in case anyone wants to read..

http://rriotboi.blogspot.com/