Question about itchyness!

[hikari-luv.livejournal.com]

Ok ... short question here..

I'm just about 6 months on my HRT .. and like .. of course I know when your breasts are growing .. there is always a slight pain now and then .. but .. I've started to get MEGA itchy .. and being that it hurts while it's itchy .. it's sort of an endless loop of pain when I go to scratch!

Has anyone else experienced this? Maybe someone knows why this happens?? I was told it's probably the skin stretching as the breast grows... and that it just irritates you.. but ya ..

Thanks everyone!
~Jamie

Personality change, and sex vs gender

[twoxmale.livejournal.com]

My mother is still hounding me about this.  Her latest claim is that me wanting to become physically (that's all I want, physically) male is like asking her to kill off her daughter because I will be a completely different person once I start taking hormones.  This confused me.  I asked her to explain and she said she keeps researching and reading and hearing horror stories of FtMs becoming aggressive short-tempered monsters on T.

What is up with this?  My research has shown none of this.  I won't really become a different person, will I?  I mean, it would just be like going through puberty again, wouldn't it?  I'd be weird for awhile and then my body would get used to it, right?  I am a sensitive, emotional person, and T isn't magically going to suck all of the emotions out of me other than 'RAWR HULK SMASH'.  I don't understand.

I give her examples of many many many sensitive/'metrosexual' men, show her the andogynous 'emo/goth' look I am aiming for with the guys that look like girls, and she dismisses them all.  Which brings me to my other subject I want to ask about.  I am completely fine with my personality.  I would not mind being seen as a 'girly' guy, at all.  In fact, I would prefer it.  My gender identity is not completely male.  As a male, I probably would be the reverse of a tomboy.  I wouldn't really care if, after I've fully transitioned, people read me as female on occasion because of long hair or whatever.

It's my physical self I'm unhappy with.  I don't know how to explain this to anyone.  Wanting to change your GENDER is apparently a million times easier to convey to someone than wanting to change your SEX.  There is a huge difference for me, and it's my SEX I want to change.  My gender identity is androgynous, but my sexual identity is male.  How do I explain this to someone?

Attention! LGBTQ Youth 13-24

[jayteeny12.livejournal.com]

Attention teens ages 13-24! The Trevor Project and Lambda Literary Foundation proudly announce the first annual "Second Chances" LGBT Youth Essay contest.

 "Harness your creativity while sharing your personal story in the first-ever "Second Chances" essay contest for lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, and questioning (LGBTQ) youth.

 "All young people should be proud of their sexual orientation of gender identity. Today's brave generation of youth are coming out earlier than ever and even becoming active advocates for LGBTQ issues in their communities. However, sometimes reactions from family, friends, classmates, teachers and others can be unsupportive or hurtful, and contribute to young people feeling helpless, hopeless, and alone.

 The Trevor Project is the leading national organization focused on crisis and suicide prevention efforts among LGBTQ youth, and Lambda Literary Foundation is dedicated to raising the status of openly LGBT people throughout society by rewarding and promoting excellence among LGBT writers who use their work to explore LGBT lives. Together we've teamed up to encourage LGBTQ youth throughout the country to step up and share their stories of overcoming feelings of depression, thoughts of suicide or suicide attempts, and other unique experiences involving overcoming obstacles.

 Five winning entries will be chosen by a review panel of professional writers involved with or recruited by The Trevor Project and Lambda Literary Foundation. These five winning essays will be published on The Trevor Project's website on or about Friday, February 5th, 2010. Select essay entries, including but not limited to the top five winners, may be chosen by the review panel for inclusion in an anthology of essays that will be published, sold and distributed in the future."

 For more information & the offical rules please visit www.trevorspace.org
Good luck to all who enter & don't forget to pass on the word!

x-posted ftm_youth, ftm, transgender, albanyqueer, addme_glbt, transyouth, genderqueer, genderoutlaws, queerandsober

The word cis [possibly controversial]

[aumentou.livejournal.com]

I should probably introduce myself first. Hello, I'm Aumentou, and I don't want to give out my real name right now. I'm MtF, at the start of the transition, late twenties, and live geographically almost smack in the centre of the UK (or in the north, if you're English).

( anyway, Cis )