Update on my Name Change

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After getting the Name Change form from the B.D.&M. I was so eager to start the process of handing the form in on Friday! But then I thought what does my littlesir think? Am I going too fast or does he think that I am only doing this cause I am with him?

Wel to answer these two questions it was keeping me awake on last night!

The first response is that littlesir thinks it is too soon for me to change my name cause I still look male to everyone! But for me it is a challange that I want to face deeply!

The Second response is that: No, I am not doing this cause of littlesir, littlesir has some idea that I am and he thought that I would come out in 3-4 years time! *showed him :o)* But I knew about myself and had some feelings about this but it never came out to me till recently! I knew I am attracted to boys, and every relationship I have had with both sex I have always feel in my heart, body and soul that I am a female inside of a boy's body.

I just needed to re-assure myself and needed time to place the jigsaw pieces together to get the big picture of me! In which I have finally done that!

I just hope that people don't judge me cause of what I have been going through for the 9 years.
It's my life and I am happy