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Reflection: How this assignment will help me in the future.

Entry:
I'm sitting in Drama class right now supposedly typing a reflection on the assignment we

just did (A monologue)... which I didn't do nor was I forced to do it since I'm in Tech. I

feel really bad about that right now... --;

I'm wearing really awesome boots, flare jeans, a black pleated skirt, and a white sweater-y

top thing... With a really ugle gray sweatshirt over it because I'm too nervous to not wear

it. --;

I've been really stuggling with everything. My relationships, school, feelings, the play...

I'm just so exhausted. Lately, I've even been considering purchasing hormones online. Grr.

I've been to five different endocrinologists. They've all turned me away and said to come

back when I'm somewhere between 24-29 years old. And that right now I'm too young to "know

what I'm feeling". --;;; I'm really fed up with it. My mom isn't letting me go to a

psychologist or anything either. Grah.

School is... ugh. It just depreses me. That's all.

I want to be a girl so much... Look like one, at least. What bothers me the most, I suppose,

is the feeling of being lost. I've tried to see a pschologist but he didn't have a clue.

I've spoken with so many doctors...

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Reflection: How this assignment will help me in the future.

Entry:
I'm sitting in Drama class right now supposedly typing a reflection on the assignment we

just did (A monologue)... which I didn't do nor was I forced to do it since I'm in Tech. I

feel really bad about that right now... --;

I'm wearing really awesome boots, flare jeans, a black pleated skirt, and a white sweater-y

top thing... With a really ugle gray sweatshirt over it because I'm too nervous to not wear

it. --;

I've been really stuggling with everything. My relationships, school, feelings, the play...

I'm just so exhausted. Lately, I've even been considering purchasing hormones online. Grr.

I've been to five different endocrinologists. They've all turned me away and said to come

back when I'm somewhere between 24-29 years old. And that right now I'm too young to "know

what I'm feeling". --;;; I'm really fed up with it. My mom isn't letting me go to a

psychologist or anything either. Grah.

School is... ugh. It just depreses me. That's all.

I want to be a girl so much... Look like one, at least. What bothers me the most, I suppose,

is the feeling of being lost. I've tried to see a pschologist but he didn't have a clue.

I've spoken with so many doctors... <This goon keeps coming up to me and trying to read what

I'm typing. --; > I'm really really tired of all this crap. >_<

After I shut my computer down, we played this game that was boys vs. girls <.<
The two teams had to come up with a skit to challenge the other with and after the opposite

team went the challengers would act out how it /should/ have went. The girls challenged the

boys first and their challenge was a skit about Queer Eye for the Straight Guy. And of

course the guy in the skirt and funky top was chosen first. <.< >.> Hehe.

I'm AP Bio now... and I just took a test on Photosynthesis and plants... I bet I failed. But

it wasn't so bad. ;_;

I better post this now. Mr. Hendricks (My AP Bio teacher got me a paper cup (with elephants

on it, hee) so I can get some coke that I stole from concessions in the theatre. <.< I'll

post this in my personal journal, too.