I need validation ;_;
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transMm. Today was fun. But it was freezing out. Sheesh. I don't remember it ever raining in California.
I'm after tips on how to improve my appearence, my facial expressions (I can't smile, it looks really bad when I do - as per these pictures), how to act... Anything that might help. When I'm out in public I'm fine, but I'm really nervous before and after... I'd really like some validation. Not to make myself feel better, just to clear up concerns of passing very well or not.
I'm going to have some pictures below (Links) in the cut.
I'm going to put up pictures from over a year ago to the ones take today and very recently. I'd like some comments on them. ^_^;; I'm very insecure at times about my appearence.
March 2004
1. Taken just over a year ago. Not 2003, 2004. Misnamed it. Wearing all black since I was going to be working in the lift in the Theatre that day... One of the few "good" pictures (Where I don't hate how I look).
http://69.227.94.246/photos/mattfeb03.jpg
June 2004
2. Mm. During a D&D session we kinda lost the storyline and got bored. So, we went down to the store crossdressing... Lots of people stared and honked. Hehe. First time I wore a skirt in public. <.<;;;
http://69.227.94.246/photos/mattnoah.jpg
September 2004
3. Hehe. This was taken... three weeks into school or so. Second time I wore a skirt outside and the first time to school. Since it was plaid, many people just thought it was a kilt. Did cause quite a commotion in the Administration, though. A bit after I "came out" (That phrase still sounds funny to me) to several of my teachers and two of the most gossipy women in the school. A few weeks later a Truant Officer came to me and asked me to "Respect the other students in the school and to treat school like a job. It would be best if you didn't dress like a woman any longer because it distracts too many others." That's Admin lingo for "We don't want you doing it. Someone's bitched about you. It's not technically against the dresscode, so we can't punish you. But we can still annoy you about it." That Truant Officer was the kind of person who used phrases like "We're both fellow human beings and we aren't suffering more than anyone else." <.< I've worn a skirt.. a couple more times after that. But not during class, just in the theatre during plays / events.
http://69.227.94.246/photos/mattkilt.jpg
November 2004
4. Ahh. One of my best pictures I've taken yet (and my icon <.<;;). I have a really bad shadow at times. Ehehe. I have a five o'clock shadow at 8am. I had to have loads of makeup on during that pictures... <.< Went to the mall and looked around at stuff after that picture. Found a neat outfit... It's the one in the next picture.
http://69.227.94.246/photos/zellyblack.jpg
5. This was taken about a week after the last one. Still had to have lots of makeup... But better outfit now. ^^ We went out to the mall and looked at clothes in JCPenny's... But I was too nervous about passing to actually go into the woman's dressing room in the Junior's section... ._. My breasts were made of socks at the time... -.-'
http://69.227.94.246/photos/zellyskirt.jpg
December 2004
6. The rest were taken within the past three weeks. Starting with the latest; Just took this one kinda randomly for someone online... <.<;; This time I had just waxed my facial hair off... I had chicken pox during the Thanksgiving break and couldn't shave for like 16 days. So.. I waxed it off. Results are good. Still no hair... Clean skin... But it took 12 days~ or so to grow out the hair long enough and 6 - 8 hours to completely wax. Plus a /lot/ of pain. Any other ways to do that? Since when I just shave there's a gray "shadow" left.
http://69.227.94.246/photos/zellyobonco.jpg
7. Eheheh. This was a pose my girlfriend wanted me in. Apparently it resembles some Sailor Moon thing. -_-' Scary.
http://69.227.94.246/photos/zellydontask.jpg
8. Okay. Now we get to the ones taken today. This one was taken at a Trolley stop on the way to the mall. It was really cold... It was raining. Freezing! Not the best day to wear that outfit. And since Telan has bad timing on the camera at times I was shivering just as she took it.
http://69.227.94.246/photos/zellytoday.jpg
9. Another picture taken later in the mall. Have my jacket on now. <.<
http://69.227.94.246/photos/zellytodayj.jpg
Okay... That's kinda how I've "progressed", I suppose. I'm trying to start just going full time... But I guess I have a bit more ways to go. -_-
I'd really appreciate any tips or suggestions or comments any of this.
Thanks,
~Zelly
I'm after tips on how to improve my appearence, my facial expressions (I can't smile, it looks really bad when I do - as per these pictures), how to act... Anything that might help. When I'm out in public I'm fine, but I'm really nervous before and after... I'd really like some validation. Not to make myself feel better, just to clear up concerns of passing very well or not.
I'm going to have some pictures below (Links) in the cut.
I'm going to put up pictures from over a year ago to the ones take today and very recently. I'd like some comments on them. ^_^;; I'm very insecure at times about my appearence.
March 2004
1. Taken just over a year ago. Not 2003, 2004. Misnamed it. Wearing all black since I was going to be working in the lift in the Theatre that day... One of the few "good" pictures (Where I don't hate how I look).
http://69.227.94.246/photos/mattfeb03.jpg
June 2004
2. Mm. During a D&D session we kinda lost the storyline and got bored. So, we went down to the store crossdressing... Lots of people stared and honked. Hehe. First time I wore a skirt in public. <.<;;;
http://69.227.94.246/photos/mattnoah.jpg
September 2004
3. Hehe. This was taken... three weeks into school or so. Second time I wore a skirt outside and the first time to school. Since it was plaid, many people just thought it was a kilt. Did cause quite a commotion in the Administration, though. A bit after I "came out" (That phrase still sounds funny to me) to several of my teachers and two of the most gossipy women in the school. A few weeks later a Truant Officer came to me and asked me to "Respect the other students in the school and to treat school like a job. It would be best if you didn't dress like a woman any longer because it distracts too many others." That's Admin lingo for "We don't want you doing it. Someone's bitched about you. It's not technically against the dresscode, so we can't punish you. But we can still annoy you about it." That Truant Officer was the kind of person who used phrases like "We're both fellow human beings and we aren't suffering more than anyone else." <.< I've worn a skirt.. a couple more times after that. But not during class, just in the theatre during plays / events.
http://69.227.94.246/photos/mattkilt.jpg
November 2004
4. Ahh. One of my best pictures I've taken yet (and my icon <.<;;). I have a really bad shadow at times. Ehehe. I have a five o'clock shadow at 8am. I had to have loads of makeup on during that pictures... <.< Went to the mall and looked around at stuff after that picture. Found a neat outfit... It's the one in the next picture.
http://69.227.94.246/photos/zellyblack.jpg
5. This was taken about a week after the last one. Still had to have lots of makeup... But better outfit now. ^^ We went out to the mall and looked at clothes in JCPenny's... But I was too nervous about passing to actually go into the woman's dressing room in the Junior's section... ._. My breasts were made of socks at the time... -.-'
http://69.227.94.246/photos/zellyskirt.jpg
December 2004
6. The rest were taken within the past three weeks. Starting with the latest; Just took this one kinda randomly for someone online... <.<;; This time I had just waxed my facial hair off... I had chicken pox during the Thanksgiving break and couldn't shave for like 16 days. So.. I waxed it off. Results are good. Still no hair... Clean skin... But it took 12 days~ or so to grow out the hair long enough and 6 - 8 hours to completely wax. Plus a /lot/ of pain. Any other ways to do that? Since when I just shave there's a gray "shadow" left.
http://69.227.94.246/photos/zellyobonco.jpg
7. Eheheh. This was a pose my girlfriend wanted me in. Apparently it resembles some Sailor Moon thing. -_-' Scary.
http://69.227.94.246/photos/zellydontask.jpg
8. Okay. Now we get to the ones taken today. This one was taken at a Trolley stop on the way to the mall. It was really cold... It was raining. Freezing! Not the best day to wear that outfit. And since Telan has bad timing on the camera at times I was shivering just as she took it.
http://69.227.94.246/photos/zellytoday.jpg
9. Another picture taken later in the mall. Have my jacket on now. <.<
http://69.227.94.246/photos/zellytodayj.jpg
Okay... That's kinda how I've "progressed", I suppose. I'm trying to start just going full time... But I guess I have a bit more ways to go. -_-
I'd really appreciate any tips or suggestions or comments any of this.
Thanks,
~Zelly
