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Hi all, thanks so much for your comments to my post, i'm somewhat back to normal now...I think I was just bothered by a combination of things like being told by a co-worker that he clocked me almost instantly then my face breaking out in dermatitis but mostly is was a depressive reaction to a disapointing dental surgery I had a couple of years ago that left my face kinda un-geometrical (due to tissue damage), friends say they cant see what the hell i'm on about...but it was oh so apparent in those damn department store mirrors, I hate down lighting.

Anyway, I realized that just because I was sick of my tedious routine of hair and make-up (partly due to the annoyances mentioned above) that it did not mean that I wanted to live as a boy again...my god I hated it, but even if I am clocked...whats so awful about that?....I am what I am and when it comes down to it I am happy to live my life as a transgendered girl and thats the bottom line I guess. I am wearing less make-up these days and i'm more relaxed about 'passing' which is really positive I think......thanks again for your support love Shannon xxx