life x2

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At the moment. I haven't told many people that I'm not who they see me as. I feel as if I'm living a double life almost. Yet, at the same time not living as myself at all. I can't be my true self or be treated as the person I am around anyone. The computer is my only outlet of being myself, which helps, but there's no physical contact. I am different with transkids I've met on the computer. I feel more like myself than around people I've know for years. Does anyone else feel this way? I know the two will converge at some time because I am who I am, people just don't know yet. It still feels like I'm living a lie.